[PenultimatePeril]

I don't know if I'm posting this in the right place or not so I'm sorry if this is posted in the wrong place. But basically I feel as though AMHT (adult mental health team) have completely failed me. People keep saying that I need to go back to my Dr and tell my Dr that things have got worse and that AMHT have failed me and have actually completely denied me help and have removed me from the on-line CBT which they have offered me, the only problem is I can't actually find it in myself to go back to my Dr and say that things are not great and that I need to see another counsellor. I am also scared that like previous times the counsellor I get referred to will judge me and tell me 'You're too pretty to feel this way' The on-line CBT was not helping but at the same time I was slowly working my way through the on-line CBT program, I feel completely failed by them as my clincal helper was supposed to have regular 2 weekly contact with me by the phone - this never happened, I feel failed by AMHT and failed by the system but I know this isn't just going to go away on its own and that I need help. I currently have a on-line counsellor who I have three sessions left with . I know I need to see my Dr and my Dr does know me well and such like but it just scares me to think I may be referred back to AMHT and for it to not help again as I've been through the AMHT system twice now second time round they told me that they could not help me and that was to pretty to feel the way I do...

Sorry if this is in the wrong place.

[gayleggg]

So sorry things are not working out for you. Sounds like your only hope for help is to tell your doctor. I'm in the US and not familar with the medical system in England, so can't really help. Hope you have better luck in the future.
Gayle

[spondiferous]

I don't think it's in the wrong place at all. I can completely relate, though for me it's not 'too pretty', it's 'too functional' to need their help. To be honest I've had it. I feel like I just want to go into the facility and start beating the crap out of people and maybe they'll listen. Four years of trying to get help, being bounced around from shrink to shrink, counsellor to counsellor, not having money to do anything that will actually help me. I HATE the mental health system. It's got not one bit to do with actual health. Hopefully you can find some actual help.

[PenultimatePeril]

Wow, yeah I hate the way AMHT judge on looks and appearance, it annoys me, Feelings should never come down to someone how looks....

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, PenultimatePeril.

Originally Posted by PenultimatePeril

'You're too pretty to feel this way'

The people who tell you that do not understand depressive illness. No one would ever say that to me, but if I heard anything like it I'd be inclined to turn around and report it to my referring doctor.

I hope somewhere in the system you find people who do understand.

[PenultimatePeril]

Rohag - yeah I walked out when they told me that, yeah I am considering seeing my Dr again - but I'm worried my Dr will just refer me back into AMHT which really are not helpful when they judge me, I feel completely failed by AMHT and dont wish to go back to them, but perhaps I could see my Dr and ask to be reffered to a different counselling team?

[Nammu]

Wow, that is so wrong on so many levels! To be told you are too pretty to feel that way shows their ignorance of all health topics, that's like saying you are too pretty to get cancer. We all know that cancer does not care what you look like, neither does mental illness. I know it is hard but next time they say that ask them if cancer spares people who are pretty and tell them they need to do their job. Oh! I too am in USA so I'M not aware of legal options over there, could you google legal protection for mental illness? Because that is discrimination. Would talking to your doctor and telling him how they have treated you help? Best of luck in this.

[PenultimatePeril]

Yeah I'd been through the system once and was told the IAP team would be more ''long term'' I had four sessions under IAP how four sessions is long term I'm not really sure >.< being under IAP part of AMHT was worse than being under the first team of AMHT as with the first part of AMHT you got 6 one hour sessions, under IAP I was given 4 half hour sessions and was told if I wanted more I would have to see my DR again and get re-referred and go through the system again - Which I did - To then be told that I am to pretty to feel the way I do and that they cannot help me. I was even honest about the self harming.

I did not even know there was such a thing as legal protection. Yeah I am really considering seeing my DR and talking my Dr about all of this my Dr has known me since I was about 2 years old so he gets me and understands me and my needs he even understands the 'no eye contact' due to having asperges syndrome and freaking out about eye contact etc another thing counsellors under AMHT did not understand and tried to force me to make eye contact. The whole AMHT system has failed me.

I think when I do go back to my Dr - I will ask to put under another counselling team and not AMHT as I feel so failed and let down by them. I have an on-line counsellor at the moment, the only thing AMHT have offered me since all this is a course of on-line CBT where my clinical helper was supposed to phone me every two weeks, they new my issues with this they new I found the voice on the program patronising yet they insisted I continued with it so I told them I would take a break from it and come back to it when I felt ready they said they would phone me to check on how I'm finding it. I have no phonecalls, just an email saying I had been removed from the programe and my account is on hold, if I wish to go back to it I can but it means I will have to start the course of on-line CBT from the beginning again.

Sometimes I feel as though prisoners get better treatment than people who have m/h issues.