[psychmajortwenty2]

I'm not talking about suicide. I still want to live. Whatever this life is... I mean.. it's the only one we have.. and while it's a struggle, life is still life. Everybody struggles.

It's just.. I'm feeling so "blah".

I know I need to change.. to get into healthy habits! Be a productive citizen! But I can't bring myself to do it. I like finding music and chilling and smoking a cigarette or having a beer instead of doing work. I know smoking is bad. I know exercise is good.

INTELLECTUALLY I KNOW ALL OF THESE THINGS.. so why the eff am I still ... like... ... this?

Some people say it's because you don't really want to change.. otherwise you would. Well, I'm telling you, I do. Do I just have to get this stupidity and this self-abuse out of my system? Or.. like.. what do people do?

How do you motivate yourself to get yourself out of this blunted meh stage of mood??

[Rohag]

Hello, Psychmajortwenty2.

Originally Posted by psychmajortwenty2

How do you motivate yourself to get yourself out of this blunted meh stage of mood??

Long ago I could do it by getting a good night's rest and through force of will and discipline. That was long ago. Depression made it harder and harder to do less and less until I crashed. Now motivation depends on inspiration syncing with short periods of energy, and they don't often sync.

May someone younger and more resilient than I see your post and offer you a realistic answer.

[online user]

Some ideas:

Get a copy of Burns, "Feeling Good Handbook" and work through the exercises.

Write out some positive affirmations about yourself and read them to yourself, looking in a mirror several times a day.

Write out some ideas of things you'd enjoy, and try to do one per day, like, go outside and look at the flowers...watch the birds at the birdfeeder...read a chapter in a new novel of an author you like, etc. Whatever you can think of that will give you a moment of enjoyment.

Hope this helps. The fact you WANT to change is important.