how do you survive?

How do you all survive? I feel so lost at sea, i feel like i won't... or I can't, or I don't know how to... even menial things seem hard right now...

Hi ouch hope you feel better soon. For me I have a dog and three cats. They are a god send to me. I listen to relaxing music . When i feel worse. I come here everyone here has been there a few times. I am with you in that feeling.

Menial things are the worst, to me. They are so freakin' boring that my thoughts are more likely to turn to black. I'm sorry you're struggling. Please post as often as you need to. People are very supportive here.

(((((( ouch ))))))

Good, appropriate user name.

I feel the same way. I have my good moments.. but they don't last.
I'm trying to do things that make me happy and make me feel good. I hope that you'll do the same..

I couldn't survive with out God. Sometimes when I am at my lowest, I kinda have to treat myself as I would one of my loved ones.. if that makes any sense.

And when it comes to doing things... I turn the music on loud and I pretend I am doing something super fun...I know its lame but its a start..

Also, I read something that helps me.. I'll share it:

" The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely, or unhappy is to go outside.Somewhere where they can be quiet, alone with the heavens, nature and God.Because only then does one feel that all is as it should be and that God wishes to see people happy. amidst the simple beauty of nature.As long as this exists, and it certainly always will. I know that then there will always be comfort for every sorrow. Whatever the circumstances may be. And I firmly believe that nature brings solace to all troubles." Anne Frank.

I am taking one day at a time now...I try to be cheerful for everybody...but inside I am crying...I think I know how you are feeling ouch...Just try to do something you like every day...even watching an old television show or doing a crossword puzzle...or coloring...lol...anything that you would enjoy doing....You are worth it!!!

Sometimes I feel like I'm not worth anything. Any little thing that anyone says that is slightly negative, sends me spiraling inside my head. Why can't I be strong?

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Sometimes I feel like I'm not worth anything. Any little thing that anyone says that is slightly negative, sends me spiraling inside my head. Why can't I be strong?

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((((((( HUGS )))))))) ~ ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS ))))))))

I use to feel just like YOU are feeling right now...... but with HEALING came ACCEPTANCE of myself, and I am still working on it.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

I feel like I have fallen off a cliff and just keep falling down and down. today I walked into a hospital because I felt SO DOWN, but when the woman at the desk asked me if it was an emergency, i said no. I really didn't want to be an inpatient, I just felt like I needed to talk to someone and felt so lost...

Ouch are you getting help from a doctor?

I am seeing a GP who keeps upping my dose of anti-dep's. So yes. But, she doesn't really listen to me - I feel that I am just a 'mental case' and she doesn't really listen to my worries about putting so much poison into my body.
I am scared. feeling too lost to put into words. falling....

Yes,
I am seeing a GP. She just keeps upping my dose of AD's. I just keep adding more and more poison to my body. Feel like I'm falling so fast... out of control... don't know how to hold onto firm ground...

For a long time I survived with good books. Reading about young people who were trying to find themselves and struggling with problems like mine and/or attitudes like mine, etc. kept my courage and hope up.

ouch one day at a time is there anything in your life that makes you smile?

I think of my nephew when i feel down and at least for 5 minutes i am smiling and thinking of good times

Lately I have trouble reading (can't concentrate) and have trouble smiling. I guess, work helps me - I am somehow able to still do that (although i'm always late and am very ineffecient). But, I just feel like i'm sinking so quickly! feel like i need help, but don't know where to get it...

((((( ouch ))))) hold on

I am trying... feel sooo lost. my dad is actually coming to visit(he lives quite far) because my parents are worried about me. embarrassing that they're coming since i'm over 30... I'm embarrassed to talk about depression. embarrassed to be myself right now...

Ouch, there is nothing to be embarrassed about. It's not your fault. It's a brain chemistry issue. It's nice that your dad cares so much to come and see you. Hopefully you'll enjoy his company and let yourself be taken care of for a little while.

My husband felt the same way you did -- it was painful -- and it took him quite a while before he felt better, but the good news is that it CAN get better (and it WILL get better -- just keep hope alive, ok?).

((( Ouch )))

i survive with an effeciticve combination of medication and therapy.

I'm taking meds and doing therapy - but i think the therapy isn't working. I tried to get into a grp therapy program, but i think the Dr. thinks i'm too ill at the moment to join and he just keeps postponing putting me into the grp.
Next week he said he would decide what to do...

i am seeing an excellent therapist. he takes the humanistic approach which is definitely what i need right now. i had to look around for a while after i was diagnosed with depression to find the right therapist. it is important to find a therapist who matches up with you well, and i think that i finally found one after going through three other therapist. after a few appointments with those therapists i could tell that i was not a good match for them and i decided not to continue to visit with them anymore. i have been seeing my current therapist for over since april and things have been working out. right now i am taking lexapro for depression for 3 weeks. i have not felt any effects yet but that is normal because my psychiatrist said that it normally takes 4 to 6 weeks to take effect. just keep looking for the right therapist.

I have been seeing a psychologist and am taking effexor. XR But, i don't think the therapist is helping. i think i am feeling worse rather than better. hard to find a match. tried to join a dep group, but so far it doesn't seem the Dr. is wanting to put me in (maybe i'm too screwed up at the moment).
frustrated...