I am numb

Lately, I just don't care about anything. I feel numb, like I'm floating through life, doing the emotions, but for no reason. I feel worthless, and empty.. and I don't know why.

I haven't been sleeping either. I will toss and turn and when I finally fall asleep I feel like I never slept and there's terrible pain all over my body.

Plus, I've gotten more distant from everyone.. not for any reason that I know of.. I just have... But when I am around people I get angry so easy.. and I just get so pissed that I freak out...


When I was in eighth grade I was hospitalized for self harm and they perscribe me a high dosage of prozac and another medicine for my depression and anxiety and I havent taken it in two years.. Im a sophomore now.

If i try to ask for a therapist or medicine my dad yells and yells and i start to cry and i relapse with the self harm.. and I dont like it.. i fel ugly and i dont want to be lost anymore I want to feel something. ANYTHING.. but i dont know what to do.

My dad says that its a RIGHT to be sad.. and that I dont have a reason to.. but i am...

what do i do?

Is there a counselor at school that you could talk to or another family member? You really need to get help for the depression and self harm. Your dad is wrong.

gayleggg is right. Your father may love you, but his advice is lacking. Do not be too angry with him - I have to believe his *intent* was good.

*hugs

So sorry to hear! Since your dad won't listen and get you the help you need, I'd maybe call a crisis hotline, or if it's get's too hard too handle maybe consider admitting yourself to the hospital. Maybe he'll listen if he hears it coming from a medical professional! Best of luck!!

there is a counselor but I am afraid of her judging me... I already get bad looks from people it will just get worse

I understand what your saying.. But I don't want to go back to the hospital.. plus its fourty five miles from where I am and i dont have a lisence yet. I just wish i had someone that unserstands me