[gypsylace]

I haven't posted in a while. Today has been a blah day. My friend is doing better...she's no longer in the hospital...but that's not why I'm so down. I did a real stupid thing these last couple of months. I met a guy who was married but he left his wife(he moved out of their house). Anyway this guy and I really connected..clicked..whatever u want to call it. I let my walls and guard down and so did he. To make a long story short, things were going great and then Friday he tells me to walk away. I can't understand it. We went to dinner Thurs nite, he met my sick friend, we talked about the future, etc. and then bam he hits me with that on Fri. He said that he couldn't handle our relationship and that it wasn't me or anything that I did or didn't do, it was all him and he was too messed up in his head to deal with us. I've been in a funk all weekend. I'm starting to think that something is really wrong with me. Nothing is working out for me and I feel so lonely and depressed. I'm still taking my meds but I have a hard time sleeping at nite. Not sure what to do about all of my baggage. Anyone have any ideas????????

So sorry to hear about your relationship ending, especially with no signs before hand. It sounds like quite a shock. He may be right in that he is too "messed up" for a relationship. It might be better to call it quits now than get more enmeshed & have even more heartache later. Take care.--Suzy

[Boopers]

Gypsylace, I'm sorry things didn't work out for you but don't blame yourself. It could be that he didn't take enough time in between to work things out in his own mind. If he says it isn't you, then believe him. Give him some time and maybe he will be able to get his head together and decide that he wants to make it work.
Whatever happens, I wish you happiness!
Take care!!

Linda

[jacq10]

I'm sorry to hear that things didn't work out for you ... And maybe it seems like things are hitting you all at once, and its really overwhelming .. but you have to believe that there isn't "something wrong with you." ... I myself have a hard time with feeling and saying those exact same words ... but i know that if you can overcome them, and stop believing all these negative thoughts.. the future won't seem so inobtainable. Try taking some time and doing things that YOU enjoy. It could be as simple as drawing/singing/reading/listening to your favourite music .... anything really, but take some you time, it may help the sleeping a bit at night.
I'm sorry if none of this helped because i am struggling with many of the same things .. but know that we are all here for you, and i sincerely hope that things can get better for you.
Jacq

[JustAPixie]

((((((( gypsylace )))))))

[Christina86]

((gypsylace))

I'm glad your friend is out of the hospital. That is always a good thing - hospitals aren't very fun.

I'm sorry about how your relationship ended with that guy you meant. Fron what you've said, he sounds like he was just a bit "commitment phobic" at this point in time and I think his pushing you away was to (possibly) protect you from his current problems. (Then again, I am not him and can't speak directly for him but that could be a possibility).

Have you tried journalling, writing down all the things on your mind before you get to bed? That can help - writing down problems temporarily releases them from your mind so you're not up (or getting poor quality sleep) worrying about them. If that doesn't work, could you speak to your doctor about a possible change in medications to help you sleep better?

Sorry you're having such a rough time. *hugs* Take care of yourself.