I really don't know what to do

Hello

I don't have friends and i've been lonely for almost all my life, the only person i could count on which was my girlfriend. But yesterday, she simply said didn't like me anymore and was tired of being pushed away, and broke up with me. I don't know what to do anymore, she was everything I worked for, I lived for.

After some research I think I have AvPD (Avoidant Personality Disorder) which does make sense and fits on what have been happening lately, but i don't know how to deal with it. I cant open up with my family because i'm afraid they wont understand and will treat me differently. She was the only person i could trust enough to share everything in my head and now shes gone, she wont even talk to me anymore.

I haven't slept since yesterday, and my sleeping routine have been really poor lately which doesn't help me. I lay in bed and my chest hurts, my stomach feels like there are thousands of worms inside. I cant eat either.

Is there any advice for me on what i should do now? It feels like she died in front of me and I sincerely lost. And the sad part is that i still love her deeply...

Hi there! Have you ever given thought to talking to a therapist or a counselor about this? I'm sorry to hear about your girlfriend ): love is such a mysterious thing.

Hello! Yes after talking to a friend for a few hours, I've come to realize seeking some professional help would be the best thing to do right now. This friend also mentioned the situation could have been dealt in a better way, and my girlfriend could have tried to help me work things out for us. I tried talking to her tonight and she said all she wanted was to be happy and breaking up was the only way she thought it could happen.

I need to move on now and understand if I do need help or not.

That's wonderful! I'm so glad that you have a great friend to support you! Moving on is hard but I think you've come to the right conclusion since she seems like she doesn't want to work it out.

Talking to a professional would be definitely be good even if only just for an assessment. Then you can start to adjust behavior and move forward Please let us know how it goes! Good luck!

A good T could help you issues, help you feel less isolated, and maybe help you learn. Why you push people. Away

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a good therapist could help you and please keep posting