[charlajustin]

went to assesment appt. today the clinician said its obvious I have severe depression, anxiety disorder, post traumtic distress, ocd and probably more. then tells me that they won't be able to get me into see a therapist until after the new year and the therapist along with the psychiatrist will decide what meds I need. so i asked what should I do until then. She tells me i need to get out and make friends. ( OH REALLY ) and that I need me time ( OH REALLY AGAIN ) to find someone to wathc my kids. ( she gonna pay the babysitter ) and that maybe go to my local church just to get out of the house. HAHAHAHAHAHAHa

so here i sit for the next 30 days and I am more depressed now than i have ever been in a VERY, VERY, VERY long time and i give up, why bother, its like one big freaking joke. i don't even want my kids around me or my husband they just get on my nerves. is there really light at the end of this retardily long tunnel that i seem to stay lost in. so much rage at everything, i just want to freaking scream and run out into the street and disappear.

i'm sorry that you are having such a hard time right now. i understand your feelings of frustration over waiting for an appointment to see someone. i've been waiting for ages to see a Pdoc. it can be very, very frustrating.

i hope that your husband can keep the children for you so you could at least get out and talk a walk around your neighborhood. exercise really does help depression.

good luck, pat

[ouch]

If things get really bad you can always call a distress centre or go to the hospital. You can even go to a counselling centre and see someone right away.

[charlajustin]

at this point, it doesn't matter, once again like always. I will detach and pretend it doesn't matter, like it ever really does. ha

[Soidhonia]

Hello I am sorry it is taking so long for you to see the Dr about your problems. Have you considered going to a regular Dr for some medicaiton iuntil you see the Psych Dr again., a medical Dr can give you something, until you see a regulat Psych Dr, if you tell them that you are diagnosed and have a delay in getting medication, you may not get the same medication the Psych Dr would give you , but medication from the Dr is better than no medication at all until the first of the year. I hope things get better for you soon take care sincerely Soidhonia

i hope you have a better day today.......xoxoxo pat

[charlajustin]

stressssssssssssssssss, angerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, just shut up.

not a good day, car is still sitting out in the cold not runnign, kids running aroudn screaming like banshees, my neck is killing me, loud noises bother me so much and I can't make them understand.

[charlajustin]

IS ANYBODY LISTENING. I CAN"T TAKE THIS ANYMORE. My mind races in a million diferent directions. My neck feels like it is gonna snap. All i can do is focus on everything that is falling apart and I can't stop worry about every single thing. ;lkajdfs;kljd;fkaenreoicvx,;.aneoiuta;oj;kland;lk;hag;ldaklv,/.d;kfakdka;lisupeoriwuqrpiou,vn.c/ajeeoiwuoqiepta;dsnvfa/.v/cnadetfgn.,cn/.vmzcvm.z,xmcv';aueajdfklja;kljdflk;jdaklf.dznv.,cx/z;keoitauoitguaeoit;kvn/.c/,zc/.d'[id[a

[themusikhurts]

i am listening. i know the feeling, but you gotta find your priorities. i know they all seem like priorities, but your top is your health, mental health included. i hope you are feeling better, and i hope it only continues to get better for you. someone else had mentioned you should go see a regular doc for now, what they give you can atleast maybe help you cope till january? well, best wishes and God bless.

[JonB]

That's very frustrating. Find someone else. It's unreasonable for you to have to wait a month to start treatment. A family doctor or even a walk-in place should be able to give you something to help. I even got a prescription once from an ER doc who said start taking this NOW. See if you can find a therapist at a community organization or a private therapist (if they are too pricey find one that will work on a sliding scale) or anyone who can see you now. Don't wait! Your health is too important.

If it gets to the point that you can't take it - just go to the nearest hospital. If you have a psychiatric hospital nearby they might be able to get you started with something without you having to be an inpatient. They often have good referral programs for many different situations. Ours handles situations from private clients to homeless folks. It may not seem like the best solution but it's better than nothing. Good luck.

[Boopers]

I am listening also. I am so very sorry you have such frustrations in your life right now.
It's so ridiculous that you weren't put on any meds. What does a person have to go through these days before the docs will help.
I was where you are at a couple years ago. My kids are grown and gone but when they would come home, I didn't want them there. I didn't want to talk to them or anything. It felt like a chore to have to sit and talk with them.
I was the same way with my husband. I didn't want him around either. It's a wonder he stayed with me.
It does get better though. I promise. Sometimes, it takes a while but it does happen.
I have been on antidepressants for a couple years now and they were a God send to me. Wow, what a difference.
Hang in there and I wish only the best for you.
Take care,
Linda

[charlajustin]

thank you all for the advice and thank you Boopers just reading someone saying it will get better does help.

today has been almost surreal, have felt like I am on the verge of something just not sure what, feel all anxious and jittery, I guess thats better than not feeling anything at all.