sad

I am feeling so sad all the time and don't know what to do. I am just so sick of everything. I miss going to therapy, but I know she really could not care less about me and that always made me feel so sad. I tried to tell my husband how I felt, but he got upset so I realize I need to keep these feelings to myself. I don't really think I am depressed, just really sad. I just can't see anything better in the future for me. I am so sick of working, of everyone expecting so much from me. I just wish I had someone to talk to who cared. Everything is so pointless.

Kitty, kitty, nothing is really pointless, it just may be that way at the present. You just have been through a really super stressfull chapter in your life, yeah husband's are not the most understanding people at times (most of the times). Have you found a new therapist you like yet? I'm in the process of looking for a new psych.doc. (I think) mine is nice but "nice" is not getting me where I feel I can be at this point in my life now that "all" has settled down (thank God, if there is one). It seems to me you have reached the "funk" region of things, and "lady" it may be hard to believe right now which I truly understand, but it will come to pass, yeah I know you have heard that before but it is true, like many, I've been there and I can attest for that. Kitty, you are a cool person, unfortunately life has thrown you a hard blow, it hurts, it sucks, but please just hang in there, continue with therapy, continue to talk with people (like us), don't lose touch with yourself, and it is not bad to feel sad, it is human and it is okay. You sound like the way I use to be, I use to put enormous pressure on myself thinking I had to be close to "perfect", afraid to dissappoint others, etc. I got out of that when I realized it was messing me up and robbing me of "true" happiness. I am sorry if I am rambling, may be I am not making ny sense to you. I just hope I have been able to offer you some insight, like many here I've seen the "abyss" and with struggle and times feeling there was no hope managed to pull through, keep your inner flame burning, maybe reignite it and with time you'll get back to where you want to be or very close to it, just takes time. . .
much hugs to you, girl
XXOO
"darkeyes"

DarkEyes: Thank you so much for your support and comforting words. That is exactly what I need right now, but so hard to find. I usually do not discuss my feelings because I find most people really do not care or if they do, they respond with pity or condescension. I have given up on finding a new therapist. I have called about 5 different therapists and did not like any of them. What I really wanted was for the one I had to care, but I guess that won't happen. Thanks again for all your kind words.

I know what you mean, I wish I could of kept the one I had originally, where I use to live, it seems who ever I see it will not feel the same, I mean it is okay but that is just it, "just okay". I am very tempted to maybe drive the 1 and 1/2 hours and resume therapy with my original therapist, maybe I'm "crazy" to do so (no pun intended). I feel like the "story" was left unfinished and perhaps if therapy with the original therapist continued I'd get to the "final chapter", if that makes any sense? I've been in a bad way this week physically and yes, mentally ( a little, nothing major). It sucks when you look to your husband for just a little hug or a look of understanding and it just isn't there, or they act like "what's wrong now?". I hate him when he is like that, I never asked to be this way either, but why do I have to hurt alone? Sorry I vented, maybe you and I and some of the gals should team up, go out and tell some male bashing jokes, just kidding. Keep in touch
"hugs"
"darkeyes" (tired and watery eyes)

yes dont be troubled kitty it ill all work out trust me! mom and dad does it soooooooo much too youll be ok

Thanks for pulling this up from the mists of time, Dias. Therapists can really suck ... yeah and sometimes spouses too

Hugs to all!

Sounds like you are visiting the bottomless pit. It is a scary place. You have to take my word for it, you are not alone there. There are a lot of sister and brother travelors, some in the pit now, others taking a rest on the edge. Your shouting out "hellooo" was when you joined up here. It really helps to keep up a conversation your friends here.

I don't know what to say about therapists. I have not yet had a miracle worker, but had success time to time with their helping prod me into a better direction. I think it is worth you trying again. There is an online therapy site that has been associated with our host, Dr Grohol. Maybe someone has used it and can comment. http://www.helphorizons.com/

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Thanks kv, you're great!!!

Fuzzy hugs!!!