[TheOriginalMe]

Today will be hard, tonight even harder. Tomorrow I'll be seeing my GP and part of of wants to believe he'll be able to offer me an ad that wont destroy my life dont really think that will happen.
My dilemma is that if I give up hope then I may as well not bother with the appt at all. BUT if I allow myself to hope that will make the inevitable disappointment all the more cruel.
Is hope evil or is it necessary, what do you think?

[ToeJam]

It is probably going to take time till you find the right meds, but it will happen (I recall you saying about the list of different ones you tried).

For me, I've just had the one change; from citalopram (which being from the UK as well you probably know is the generic 'starter pack' that gps put us on, to mirtazapine)... and that has elevated some of the pressure.

So yes, I'd say hope is both a useful and necessary thing (evil.. or whatever word you want to use) till you (plural you.. doc and you) find the right thing that will work.

Where ever you're able to find it from... do try to stay strong and determined.

Thinking of you,

TJ

[Little Lulu]

Hope is tricky in that it is future-based rather than present moment. Hope works best for me when it is I-focused ... something like hope that it is possible for me to change, work on myself, and grow spiritually. From that perspective, I am not pinning my hope on another person or something outside to 'fix me'. I can tap into resources and get support along the way but at the end of the day my mental and spiritual health are an inside job.

[Altered Moment]

Don't give up hope. Whenever I have a new appoinment or try something different it gives me hope and I hold onto that. It helps me to keep trying.

I do not know if you have the choice on hope................

In my opinion..... you either have it or you do not.

Am I wrong?

Hope is all we have.

Don't let go of that.

[TheOriginalMe]

Originally Posted by Useless Me

I do not know if you have the choice on hope................

In my opinion..... you either have it or you do not.

Am I wrong?

I guess I do still hope, the problem is that I'm scared too. I want to protect myself from hurt by always thinking the worst, but that hurts too.

To me, hope means constant disappointment

But faith is bigger, somehow. I can relinquish control because I have faith that things will work out the way they're supposed to. I may get hurt and I may not, but I have faith that that's what's supposed to happen.

[paynful]

I am ALWAYS preparing for the worst... but FOREVER hoping for the best.

It is difficult, but the best you can do for yourself ...is not to build up any expectations, but to leave yourself open for the opportunities. Brace yourself for whatever comes your way.

Easier said than done, I know.

Sophiesmom is right. Faith is the key. Faith in yourself, no matter the odds, that you will be right where you need to be.