[Butterfly_Faerie]

I haven't been around really as much as I used to be, I apologize for that. I've been feeling really on the outs lately. My seasonal depression is kicking in, my sleep pattern is messed, so is my eating habits, not eating as much as I should (full meal wise).

I should be setting up my lightbox, and haven't been... that would help with my sleep patterns.

I recently purchased a self-esteem workbook to help with my confidence and esteem issues, I think the book will be a great help, but i'm already lacking on doing the exercises, and i'm not even on chapter 3 yet...

This part that i'm stuck on is a 14 day assesment type deal. I have to keep a routine of meals, sleep putting in the hours I sleep, what time I get up and go to bed, how many hours am I sleeping. Plus for food, I have to keep a log for snacks, breakfast, dinner, supper, etc. As well as keeping a work out routine even if it's just cardio either doing a 15-30 min bike work out a few times a week, to a 10 min walk here and there to just get out and get my mood up.

This is supposed to be a 14 day thing daily that I got to do for the workbook, and I haven't started it yet. :sad: I find this so hard to do, I almost just want to throw in the towel, but it's my health and mood here that's on the line, and I know if I can do this I have no doubt at all that i'll be feeling so much better. This book is supposed to be over 100 days to complete... and i'm already slacking.

Oi.. it's going to be hard, and considering that this is likely my last pdoc appt i'll be having with her after 10+ yrs of appts, it's going to be rough.

I have been reading alot, Butterbean (my female syrian hamster that I rescused) has helped my mood alot- animals are really great therapy. I'm dreading this last appt with my pdoc though, i've been seeing her since 1996, that's a long time.. my last appt is on the 22, after that I doubt that I will be seeing her again, i'll likely have to go through my GP for meds and possibly to see another T if I need to. Mind you my pdoc said that I ever needed an emergency session with her that I could still phone her up and schedule me in somehow.

Change for me sucks, I rarely have good change.... My happiness seems to be going down the tubes.

[pamelasu]

Hang in there. I know it's hard, but sometimes we just have to force ourselves out of bed and to do things to just distract our minds in order to be happy. Maybe that's what you need to do. Maybe you need to find something to just distract your mind. Don't worry about doing the workbook. If you are not up to it it's ok, eventually you will go back to it. Just keep it close by so when you do feel like doing it you can.

These things take time. It's not going to cure you over night and sometimes it may make you feel worse so be aware of that. You just have to do what you can and keep pushing forward. I'm wishing you the best of luck!! Hang in there!

[Butterfly_Faerie]

I just feel so over-whelmed.
So lost...

[LadyDragus]

We have both been struggling lately, and I understand.
I have not been around much either latley and some of it I have posted in differnt places some I have not.

You are going through a great deal right now with the upcoming holiday, and maybe losing your doc.

I wish I could even try to give you words of wisdom, but at this time, all I can do is give you hugs and wish you peace..

Keep us updated ok

Love to you ..

[Butterfly_Faerie]

Thank you P... tonight has not been good too me, had a bit of anxiety/crying etc. Meh.

[dalila]

<font color="green"> Stop looking at it as 14 days and start looking at today. I don't know that I could do something for 14 days but taking it in smaller bites I could do it today and when tomorrow comes I can do it one day then. Make it into little steps instead of a huge leap. </font>

[Christina86]

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[Butterfly_Faerie]

Thank you for the responses...

Ya I tink I'd be too over-whelmed to do it 14 days in a row... to cut it down and do it a day at a time would be easier, pushing wouldn't be good right now... as mentally it's already hard to do the everyday thing.

[Boopers]

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I've been where you are and I'm sorry you are struggling.
Hang in there.
I care,
Linda