[bluebell]

I don't seem to be able to motivate myself to do anything,not even the basics and that's not like me.there are no clean plates,cups or clothes.am not interested in food am not drinking enough.i get the kids to school and go back to bed until they come home and I just have no interest in anything.everything feels like it takes way too much energy and I can't seem to summon up enthusiasm for anything.

[live2ski66]

I'm not a doctor, based on my experiences it sounds like you are struggling with depression. Do you have a health care professional you can consult?

[bluebell]

Yes but it's not really making any difference. I feel so stuck and it's never been like this before I have always been able to do the basics . But all I want to do is hide in bed and sleep.

[Stronger]

That is the story of my life. And we, my friend are certainly not anywhere close to being alone in that. I'm sorry that it's so bad though. Depression is horribly draining.
I have narcolepsy. Which basically means my entire life is one long struggle to stay awake. So yes, I understand where you're coming from with the sleep thing.

But the sadness and the not wanting to do anything...it can get better. For me personally, I am a complete mess if I'm not on strong medication. Are you on any medications, or do you have a T? Do you have the diagnosis of depression at all?

[bluebell]

I have just switched meds but it's not really working I am hoping it will kick in properly soon. I don't really want to go through trying new ones, but this one seems to have sent my BP sky high which is not good. I have a good therapist but she is off this week.

I've been there myself. I think that switching to a different med will help. Why stick with what's not working? I'm on paxil and it works well for me with no side effects. It doesn't cost to much either. I don't have insurance for now, but a 30 day supply costs $35 for the generic brand. I'm not sure if it's good for BP though.

You can get a prescription from your family Dr. which is what I do. It's much cheaper than any therapist! Try doing things that you like such as watching funny movies, read some good books, eat some good food, hang out with good friends, shop maybe, visit your family if you're close with them, and try to get out of the house and get more vitamin D as that helps with depression.

[littlemiss44]

If you have bipolar depression then what you may need is an ap. My bp depression was treatment resistant until I started taking geodon. It has done miracles for me! It can be expensive depending on what insurance you have but I pay for it. I tried to ween down a bit to see if I could do just as well with less of a dose and it was a disaster. I went back up and have been doing better ever since. I'm so sorry yr struggling. I wish you weren't. It zaps everything out of you. Take care

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[penguinsing]

I am sorry about your situation. I am going thru similar too.

Did you doctor say how long will the new meds work ? (are you seeing family doctor or psychiatrist ?) Can you make an appointment with him/her regard your situation now ?

How old are your kids ? can you get them to do some simple house work such has washing the dishes ?

bluebell, I really can empathize with you. I spend about 15 hours out of 24 in bed, about 6 or 7 of which are actually spent sleeping. Depression can rob you of motivation and enthusiasm big time. I hope you can find some med(s) that will help you soon. I know life in bed is horrible.

[sentient6]

Not every day is the same for someone suffering from depression. There are times when getting out of bed is quite an easy thing to do, but there are others when even moving a finger is hard. The way I see it, you've been fighting for way too long and you run out of energy. You need a refill. Take your time and it will get better. I promise.

[waterknob1234]

Originally Posted by bluebell

I don't seem to be able to motivate myself to do anything,not even the basics and that's not like me.there are no clean plates,cups or clothes.am not interested in food am not drinking enough.i get the kids to school and go back to bed until they come home and I just have no interest in anything.everything feels like it takes way too much energy and I can't seem to summon up enthusiasm for anything.

I know how you feel. I suffer depression and I just feel like I need to sleep all the time when I'm not working. I used to sleep 7 to 8 hrs a night and now I feel like I need to sleep all the time. It seems to be an act of congress for me to get any chores done on the weekend. I get frustrated with myself. I have never felt this bad and tired. Contact your doc about your meds and situation. I know it does help to find some social activity that you enjoy, but you have to make yourself do it. I love working with my special needs handicapped adults at church, they are what keeps me going week after week. Good luck and lots of love.

[wannariseabove13]

I have been like that too recently. Even when I have plans with my friends on weekends, I usually text them on that day that I can't make it to whatever we planned without telling them a reason, because I often just want to sleep myself away, as long as possible....

[northbelle]

Bluebell,

I just posted a thread that sounds much like you are feeling! So I know I am not alone. One thing that really helped me was my doctor told me that she would "get me feeling better". It was someone telling me that I COULD feel better when I did not think it was possible. I have to believe that I CAN feel better. And you can too! Sometimes for me FIGHTING the feeling is the worst part...I stop drinking anything when I am depressed so I know I get very dehydrated..it seems like getting a glass of water is too much ..try to stay hydrated and take some vitamins..Do one nice thing for yourself..I used to do the same as you when my kids were home so I hear you! It has been up and down for a long time. I believe there is hope you will feel better on the meds!! We gotta have hope !!

Northbelle

[bluebell]

Thanks all of you.
Am still not feeling any better. I am waiting for them to find a foster placement for my kids and I feel so guilty but I just can't do everything right now and I need a proper break, but I am scared too. And so lonely.

[northbelle]

Oh wow..that must be so hard for you! Praying you are making it one moment at a time! Let us know how you are doing when you can!!

Love
Northbelle

[littlemiss44]

Yr trying to find foster placement for yr kids? I had to do that for my disabled son. He has aspergers syndrome and needed more help than I could give him. I can't explain it all here but I did EVERYTHING to try and help him. He became violent with his sister so he needed to go somewhere so he could get the help he needed. Now he is in a theraputic environment where he is getting 24/7 monitoring. It has done wonders for him. Try not to feel guilty. You need to do what's best for you. I hope you feel better soon. I know that's easier said than done. Take care of you. If you want to pm me about what's happening with yr kids or anything I'm here to listen...anytime. Yr not alone.

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[JanuaryDaybreak]

Originally Posted by bluebell

I don't seem to be able to motivate myself to do anything,not even the basics and that's not like me.there are no clean plates,cups or clothes.am not interested in food am not drinking enough.i get the kids to school and go back to bed until they come home and I just have no interest in anything.everything feels like it takes way too much energy and I can't seem to summon up enthusiasm for anything.

You're singing my song. It seems that many of us understand this all too well. Just getting out of bed is practically cause for celebration for me. Never mind dragging myself to the shower. Unfortunately, my doctor has told me that depression frequently causes headaches. Guess who lives with headaches and constant ringing in the ears Gah!

I find myself grazing on junk food during the day but often barely able to force myself to make dinner. Quite possibly, this indiscriminate eating caused me to gain weight and get diabetes.

Has your doctor diagnosed you with depression? If so, I hope and pray that you will get the help and care you need. It's hard, if not impossible, for us to properly care for others if we have trouble caring for ourselves.

Please be good to yourself.

Ever feel like you do not even have enough energy to sleep????

[bluebell]

I don't see any doc regularly I had a brilliant relationship with my GP but she retired so I am left with no medics that really know me and as I am on my own with my 3 kids it's just all too much for me right now. My dad died 2 years ago and last year both my grans died as well as getting divorced and moving house and it's like I just kept going and now I have come to a stop and am stuck.

I'm sitting here tears streaming down my face thinking what's wrong with me? I know really it's depression but I guess it feels wrong because it didn't hit me whilst everything was going on it's hit me when all the drama is over and I feel stupid I guess like I can't quite compute.

[Altered Moment]

It is exactly how I get when in a bad depression. I have no energy, no motivation, not interested in anything, don't care about anything, and sleep sleep sleep......1 hours a day.

Get a psychiatrist.

What meds are you taking? and for how long?

[bluebell]

The psychiatrist here isn't so great I would feel more comfortable with a woman.i just switched back to Effexor but it doesn't seem to be doing anything and I have been on it for just over a month, and I was on anti dep before this so shouldn't really be like starting from scratch, but I think you are all right I need to go back to the doctor and ask for some dynamite!

Thanks guys

[sqweaky64]

Originally Posted by bluebell

I don't seem to be able to motivate myself to do anything,not even the basics and that's not like me.there are no clean plates,cups or clothes.am not interested in food am not drinking enough.i get the kids to school and go back to bed until they come home and I just have no interest in anything.everything feels like it takes way too much energy and I can't seem to summon up enthusiasm for anything.

I can feel your pain,I suspect there is a lot of anxiety and ruminating underlying all this if you're like me.Keep reaching out,people do care and identify.

[Altered Moment]

a month may not be long enough yet

[bluebell]

I know new meds often need more than a month, but I was already on anti depressants and I have been on these ones before and usually I get a bit hyper initially.

I'm really conscious of not behaving in the way I usually would and how everything feels like too much effort and it's scary, especially as I have three young children. I wish I had friends and family around.

The children will be back at school in a few days and I haven't even got their uniforms sorted out.

I feel guilty about asking for a foster care placement for them but I am also relievers that the pressure will be off me when it is sorted out. I don't know this stranger I have become and I don't much like her.

I don't understand where all this has come from. In theory I do with having several bereavements and my youngest daughter has a sensory disorder ,dyspraxia and ADD.