I need a reason

to go on. I need a reason to even go back. Whats the point anymore? Anyone who ive trusted enough to open up to has left me in one way or another. Maybe i should stop talking completly to save other people the trouble. I need to stop being so selfish and forget what matters to me because its only causing others trouble. I just want to curl up in a ball and hide forever. I can't keep promises, clearly i'm not a good friend, this pretty much makes me useless. i can't do this ..

i don't know exactly what you're talking about, but i do know that depression causes distorted thinking....big time!!!

keeping a journal for your feelings and thoughts may help you right now. and posting here a lot surely will.

there are tons of people here who experience the same things on a daily basis.......keep me updated. xoxox pat

hi,
just to let you know, you have a purpose. no one can keep every promise that they make to another individual. that does not make us bad people, we are human. try finding qualties you like about yourself and focus on these, instead of the negative. (crawling in a corner and hiding will not solve your issues.)
gwen

Although there is such a pull to crawl in the corner......and hide..... I'm sure that for many of us, this is from childhood pain and tapes, at least that's where it starts

I completely understand you. I have been there. I know it well. If you ever feel like chatting to someone please pm me. I'm new here but I definetly would like a new online friend. Especially one who has been where I have been. I can already tell you, you are definetly not useless. You don't need to "disappear". So what if you can't keep a secret, it's completely human.

If you want to pm me and tell me what's going on and just get it out, I'll listen, AND I wont judge you. I highly doubt you're being selfish. Sometimes it's just easier to think that you're being selfish but really you're being human and everyone is entitled to do what they gotta do.

Take care!

(((((((((((Jacq)))))))))))))

You are a good friend. I'm sorry you're hurting, please talk to me if it helps - you know it doesn't bother me at all - you are NOT a nuisance.

Love ya

((((((everyone)))))

Thank you for your kind words ... today was, well interesting to say the least, and it is encouraging to see all of this suppose ... this place really is great

******support!!! :P