Brought myself down ... can't get back up again

Why is it that romance novels can make you feel so depressed? Is always someone fantasy to feel what the people in the novels feel, am I right?

I was getting really upset tonight, I was thinking that I will never get what the character got in my book, Obviously it's fiction but it still saddened me.

I wondered if I would be where I am this minute in the next 2 years, will I still be welcome in my bf's home? Will I be cooking dinner?

I see so many people in real life holding hands, you can tell they are a couple, and that they are in love. I want that, Am I being selfish for wanting that? My guy has problems expressing himself, I know it's cause of the way that he was brought up... but does he not like me on his arm? Is he not proud of me?

I'm sure if I told him this he would ask me why I'd think that way, and no he doesn't think that way, then why can he not take my hand while we are walking through a parking lot.

It just saddened me even though I know it's hard for him, but sometimes it's a comfort thing, to show hey yea you're with me, everyone look at her, type of deal, is this unrealistic?

I was really upset about this and wrote it in my journal, should I let him read it?

<font color=red>~Sundance~</font color=red>

<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>

<font color=black>Norman Vincent Peale</font color=black>