Is it ever gonna get better?

I don't really know what to say. My better mood from leaving the hospital lasted maybe a few hours. And now I've plummeted right back down again. And I don't know what to do about it. Trying to ignore it and carry on like normal. But I just feel rotten and back in that unsafe place. My bf is not happy about leaving me alone tonight while he goes to work but I've told him I'll be ok. And I will tonight, pretty sure of that. But what about the next night, and the night afer that? I'm just not sure

I have hope for you!


I know what you mean... The constant struggle and "it" coming back. Grrrrrrrr....

When I was released from my 7 days in the hospital, my wife wouldn't let me even drive the car. I know I was safe, but felt that nobody wanted to let me carry on a normal life. Now that I'm 5 months post-hospital, and about 3 weeks without medication, I'm being told that "you're doing that depression stuff again", but I don't believe that I am. I'm determined to make it better, like it was prior to this depression being allowed into my life as an unwelcome guest. I hope that you can too.

I'm sorry you are feeling bad again. Do you have someone other than bf who lives near you that you can trust to call on and come stay with you if need be? Keep posting and keep us informed. I'm hoping that things get better for you soon.

I have my parents but I hate staying there. I'm just so fed up with feeling this way.

Glad you have your parents. Stay safe. Feeling miserable gets old in a hurry. Take care of yourself.

I remember telling nobody, anyone who asked where I'd been, I just said that I’d had some family issues that I needed to deal with (was living in halls at Uni at the time)… was ashamed that I’d been taken to hospital, angry.

On my return, I was a bit withdrawn but I did a ‘back to business’ and got on with my studies.

Never really dealt with my depression directly, but I learnt and focussed on not allowing it to leak out.. to not be seen.

On topic, perhaps speak to your doctor Secret… you discharged yourself prematurely (you previously mentioned that they wanted to check your meds) due to an exam, might be worth mentioning this to someone if you’re worried.

Well I saw my T yesterday morning and had mentioned how the hospital mentioned my meds. He'd actually been trying to get me an appointment with the pdoc anyway, but she's on holiday and there is no cover for her while she is off. And my GP won't touch my meds because I'm under the care of the pdoc. So I've just got to wait until she gets back whenever that may be...

I'm sorry you're feeling lousy, secretwhisper. I'm feeling pretty defeated myself. Here's hoping things improve for both of us.

I have asked myself this question so many times ,now i have the bpd dx on top of everything else the realistic answer is probably no ! therefore i am going to modify the question to "am i ever going to get better at coping with this ? ... works in theory !! sending big hugs x

We can't answer if it's ever gonna get better. But I can say that there is a "depression success stories"-subforum to this one as you surely already know. It isn't often people post things there but it could mainly be because people don't have the same needs to talk about a success than as to talk about their current depression..right? For some people...it does get better.

I'm afraid I can't comfort you more than that... other than that you can pm me at ANYtime. I can't promise I will see it right away but sooner or later I will.

I wrote a "success story" in 2012 ~ things were going really well then; I keep on going, and some days that thought of writing that story again is the one thing that keeps me going. I sure wish that more would write those successes.

I know what a struggle it is to keep slogging along day-after-day. I wish I could think of something magical to suggest. I hope you can find the strength to carry on...