[Nolafeline]

Before the MAOI I was wore and x-small. I took pride in the face that I was thin and that others wished they were as thin as me.
One year later, I am on the other side. I am wishing I was like think people wearing x-smalls. I went up two dress sizes since January.
I hired a personal trainer to work with me twice a week and I joined Jenny Craig. But I only work out or exercise twice a week. My trainer says I should be walking more, but I lack the energy to do it. I really want to, but I just can't.
I am losing weight at a VERY, VERY slow pace.
Now my doctor wants to but me on Seroquel which can cause weight gain.
People say I look fine, but I know that I don't.
When I look in the mirror all I see are the bulges and fat. I am disgusting.
I can't take diet pills because it would severely conflict with the meds I take.
I am just screwed.

[waggiedog]

Hello darling, and NO, you are NOT screwed or otherwise. I'm now 55 and suffer Borderline Personality Disorder, as I have for the last 30 plus years ~ a lifetime of suffering to be honest. I also used to be very tiny, tho it wasn't at all ''natural'', I often starved to stay thin. I was also anorexic often and was admitted to the Psych Unit often. Not just anorexia but bulimia and binge/purge also. I didn't care, all I wanted was to be thin. People used to admire me as I was tiny! Boy, I'd give ANYTHING to be that size again!! After over 30 years my metabolisim is completely messed up, consequently my weight is higher that it was AND I'm on Seroquel. As you said, you ''look'' ''normal'' and nobody would ever know there was anything wrong. However YOU feel bad, and so do I at my weight. Dunno what that is, maybe 86llbs but I'm only 4' 11" now. I so do feel for you as I totally UNDERSTAND how you feel. BUT, Seroquel really really helps me and I can't stop taking it, I just have to live with it really. I hope you don't feel so alone now. XXXXXXXXXXXXXX

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

As I understand it, you are still losing weight.

I hate how I look as well, so I've been working out a lot - weights and cardio. Weights help because they boost your metabolism. It wasn't easy pushing myself into it. I used to workout somewhat obsessively for a few years, but depression and stuff got the better of me, .. I spent 3 or 4 years eating crap and stopped exercising. So, I'm back into it, now. I do notice the difference, but it is slow, ... y'know what? Slow is better than nothing.

You don't need diet pills. Just exercise, eat properly (starving yourself will make it worse, as it lowers your metabolism), and sleep as well as you can.

Honestly, I suspect that if you continue to get in exercise (cardio and some weights, for toning, if you're female, unless you wanna bulk up) and eat well (getting good nutrients, and avoiding too much junk food) then the Seroquel may not even have an affect on you; you can check this with your doctor.

Actually, come to think of it, if you have a personal trainer, you will probably already know most of what I told you, ... just carry on working for what you want. Good things come to those who wait, ... and in some cases, those who work for it. It doesn't happen over-night. I've been back into the game for about 2 months, and I'm starting to see a difference, ... bit less body-fat, ... mainly see it on my belly, ... the ol' six-pack is coming through a tiny bit, although partly to do with all the situps I've been doing, but still, ... it's a sign that I'm doing the right thing. Muscles are firming and bulking up, a lil bit, too. You'll be seeing differences, however small, and you need to focus on them, because it means you're doing well. The most important weapon we have, is determination, IMO. If I weren't determined, I wouldn't even bother.

[Curupira]

I was told I was fat my whole life. I also wore an extra small. It is really hard not to think of our bodies as things. As women (maybe men too) we are always told that what we look is who we are.

These days I am reying to change my thinking. i work out because it feels good, I eat healthy foods, and a cook because I love to.

Hope this helps