Im new to this-the group and to reaching out

Hi. Thank you for taking the time to read this.Im 26 years old and a married stay-at-home-mom of four.I dont want to live the way ive been living anymore.Im so unhappy its unreal.I finally went online with my symptoms today to see what is wrong with me.My symptoms of depression were overwhelming.Just last February I was working full-time,involved in my sons Little League,had friends,kept a spotless house,and, even after 4 kids,got my wieght down to 130 lbs.All that has steadily gone downhill.Ive gained @40 lbs.,I dont go anywhere,all I want to do is sleep.Im incredibly unhappy,crying alot.I dont even want to see or talk to anyone.I cant stand this!!!This is no way to live.Its no way for my children and husband to live.Please,I just need someone to "talk" to who is going through the same thing.Im not quite ready to go out and talk to a professional.Thank you again.

Welcome to PC, sarahbethm!
I hear you! I'm not in a happy place myself... I'll pm you. My ears are yours... if you want them.

Welcome to PC Sarah!
I'm sorry to hear that things are so overwhelming for you ... i understand how that feels. You sound like a really good person though, really caring about others and especially your family. Feel free to message me if you ever want to chat ... i may not be in the exact same position as you, but i've been told i'm a good listener, and i bet i can relate to some of what your feeling.
Take good care of yourself
Jacqueline

Welcome to the forum

It sounds like you've had a bad past year but now you've found this site, perhaps you will be able to clarify what your next move is. That you don't feel ready to seek professional help is fine. It takes courage, but everyone will be here to support you

Hey!!!! welcome to PC! i know you are struggling right now, but dont worry, if you ever need support, we are here for you. GOOD JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

welcome to PC. we're here.

I've experienced what you are experiencing now...only I had just two children. I was also drinking to try to lift the depression. I felt such sadness. My husband couldn't understand. He would say, "You have nothing to be sad about."

But I did reach out & try to get help through therapists. I didn't get the best treatment in the world, that's for sure, but Ididn't give up & now at age 52 (yes, it took that long for me--it won't for you) I've got a correct diagnosis & medication & treatment plan. Do reach out for professional help, please. You shouldn't have to suffer like this.--Suzy

Hello.Thank you so much for your reply to my post-I hope I worded that right!I am also drinking a little to cope with my problems.The only reason im not out-of-control is because my father was a major alcoholic and died of cirrohsis in 2000 at only 50 years old.I take special interest in your reply and think we have alot in common.If youd like to chat,please email me at sarahbethm@hotmail.com.Again,thank you so much for taking time out of your day to care for a stranger. Sarah

Welcome to PC..... I'm sorry I'm late welcoming you. I'm glad you've found us, this is a warm, caring place with lots of great, insightful, sincere people.... and then there are some who are kind of ok but fuzzy

Hi Sarahbethm,
First, I want to Welcome you to PC.
Second, I have been where you are at now, many times. I am sorry you are fighting depression.
Depression can bring you to your knees. You feel like you are in a dark hole, spiraling downward and can't do anything to stop it.
I have had severe depression for thirty eight years now and am on two different anti-depressants.
Will you go to your doc and talk to him about it? IMHO, that's the best way to go if you don't want to talk to a T. yet.
I have been where I locked my doors, closed my curtains, unplugged the phone and was in bed for days at a time. I didn't even want to talk to my own family. I would have rathered they didn't even come around me.
Depression is horrible.
Please keep posting. It does help to talk about it.
Sending you hugs.
((((((((((((((((((((((Sarahbethm)))))))))))))))))))))
I care. Oh, just a suggestion, you may not want to put your email addy out here for everyone to see. Most of us are wonderful people but you never know who might get your addy and ............... The best way to do it is pm someone and give them your email addy that way. Just a suggestion.