Im so depresed i dont even want to think of a subject.

I just feel so depressed. i cant even be in the light. im in a dark room right now, and im still wearing someones sunglasses and a hoodie. there is no point in anything. i dont feel lke telling any one anything because all they will say is "its okay" "heres some medication" "hugs" "i love you" "hang in there" etc... all that crap. I DO NOT NEED THAT. i need answers. and since no body has any, and im to upset to go looking for them, what is the point of living? my mom used to be here for me, but even she has realized she cant do anything except hug me and give me medication. i dont want to tell my bf anything, because he will jus get all sad, (even tho he says he wants to hear it) but WUTEVER. i just want to die. i dont feel like dealing with life.

HI emily. Yes I hear ya..we so want to be relieved of the pain but somehow even when we try to communicate it to those that care about us it somehow looses its message in translation..and then we feel we're only being comforted out of other peoples awkardness?...can you write about how your feeling? that way you get to "see" it exactly and the message doesnt get all confused?,...and you dont end feeling responsible for taking care of the peoples feelings after we've told them?...

Anyways take care.

Hi Emily,

Yes, I've been where you're at. Many times. If you are on medication and still feel this way, then the meds must not be working. It sounds like you need to change to something different.

You said that you don't want all that, you want answers. What answers do you want? Just curious as to what answers you need that someone isn't giving you?

Linda