[kittydag18]

I don't really like doing anything right now. I actually wouldn't mind just disappearing from the universe. All I really want to do is sit on the couch or lay in my bed, either sleeping or just staring at the wall.

I'm kind of in one of those moods where I just don't care about anything. I don't want to eat, I don't want to move, absolutely nothing. If I were to die right now, I don't think I would mind. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I want to die or anything, but I just wouldn't care if I did.

It's officially less than a month until I have my psychiatrist appointment. I hate that I have to wait so long, but I can't afford it otherwise.

I have no hope for tomorrow, it takes too much effort.

[plynstrom261]

Hi there,

I'm sorry you feel this way. I've been in the same position myself and still am sometimes. It's okay to feel what you are feeling and to acknowledge your emotions but don't be afraid to push yourself and take first steps, no matter how small, because they'll help you feel better about your situation. You'll find things and people that you care about, but all in good time. Until then, be patient and please don't get discouraged.

I hope you feel better soon!

Kind Regards

[ashland]

before I got a firearm I tried oding then hung myself but the cord broke but I was dead on the way to the hospital they revieved me in the ER. first words were **** I was at peace. whoever shocker me burnt my skin I had to square patches burnt into my skin. so that was 4 days in icu and 10 days in the ward. how dumb that was. I could remember nothing for 5 days do to taking all those butabutal as my brain was soaked with drugs. never again. so think twice before you try for real . death is forever.

[pudica]

me too
really want time to pause so i can rest and catch up

[BlueMoonBlueEarth]

I'm really sorry that you feel so awful. I sometimes feel the same way where I just want to crawl into my bed and sleep, not doing anything, not thinking anything, and I wouldn't mind disappearing from the world. But then I tell myself that my family would never get over the pain if that happened, and that keeps me going. When I was first depressed, it took ages for me to even start getting the help I needed, so I can relate to how you're feeling. Healing is slow.

I hope you get the help you need. Good luck.