Please can someone help me

I'm mostly copying and pasting from my member intro thread although I did post this in the anxiety forum, I thought why not here because I just need different opinions on what this could be.

Now, another thing that started occuring around the time the horrid anxiety came (after the major depression episodes a couple of years back, I've been suffering from major depression for 5 years already) is that I started hearing voices inside my head at night way more often than I used to (Ive always had, but never remembered. Now I'm conscious and not near sleep when it happens. To me, it seems like sharded memories interrupting my thought process since it feels like I've heard them before, MOST of them. It's mostly garbled, I can't really understand it except a few words here and there). It rarely happens during the day but when it does, it's outside my head and it really scares me. My therapist believes it's that my depression has psychotic features.
One thing that is really bothering me now is that now I've gotten so scared and paranoid that whenever I hear someone around me whisper or talk quietly, I can't decipher whether it's in my head or not. I verify that they're actually other people around me but I can't help but feeling they're inside my head and it's not true. I can't decipher what I actually heard or not. This is exacerbated by my huge dissociating problem (it's so bad that at random times during the day I would be talking to my friends and suddenly feel like my voice is not mine, it's someone else talking and it's not me).
My therapist keeps urging my parents to take me to the psychiatrist but they are strictly against it. We've tried everything except meds but my anxiety and depression does not appease and she believes they would really help me. My parents are the type to believe that psychiatrists and meds are for insane people. They don't know about the voices though I need help.

Also, another thing that has been happening a lot is that when I am in a bad dissociation episode (the dissociation is getting really bad) sometimes when I say something or I move my head or take a step, it feels like I never did/never said it, but at the same time it's like I never stopped doing it. It's kind of difficult to describe, it's like in those movies when they do slow motion and you see past images of them trailing behind their every moment, it's kind of like that. It's a very odd feeling and I don't like it at all.

Please can someone tell me what's going on and if this is normal. I would really appreciate it. (Sorry for the extremely long post)

i don't know if you're below 18yo - if you are over 18yo - then go to a psychiatrist, whether your parents like it or not. if you're covered by their insurance - then go to your county human services facility and ask them if you can somehow be covered by obamacare. if the dissociated episodes are getting worse and worse you probably need to be under some sort of meds. if under 18yo - and if your therapist has suggested you going to a psychiatrist - then he/she already knows what's going on and maybe should at least try to call your parents in to educate them on mental health issues - since no one is "insane" if you go to a psychiatrist - but since they're the only ones to legally proscribes meds, that's the way to go. {IMHO} good luck - & i do hope you do get better.

I agree with fluffbuster, you need to see a psychiatrist and that you should do whatever it takes to get an appointment.

To offer a little reassurance, what you are experiencing isn't unusual, many other people will have had similar experiences and although you are obviously distressed you do seem to have a good level of insight. So there is a very good chance that with the right meds / intervention these symptoms should start to settle down.

Take care.

Yeah I'm under 18, just by two years though but they are strictly against me going. I could ask her to simply explain about mental health problems although knowing my close minded parents, they won't care nor listen. They are just so very close minded, they really think meds are just another way to get hooked on a drug. I need to find a way they can understand and it's only getting worst and worst and I don't think I can wait two years. Besides, it's not even in our insurance. How can I get them to understand (just to put it this way, when I was extremely suicidal, they were strictly against putting me in the hospital)?

My parents don't let me though. They don't even acknowledge mental illnesses to be a real thing.

I agree with the others. It would probably help you to see a psychiatrist and get on medication. Maybe your therapist could speak to your parents and explain your symptoms and the situations from a medical perspective so they wouldn't see it as you getting "on drugs." I understand these symptoms are causing you anxiety and distress. Best of wishes to you.

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emergency psychiatric services for people 16 yrs and younger

I've tried so hard, they think that I'm constantly lying to the therapist and exaggerating, they really don't believe there's anything wrong with me. Maybe I can have her explain the voices, the one thing that I haven't told them, but in a way they will understand AND believe. It's just very very complicated dealing with people this close minded and refusal

I don't think I'm bad enough to go to emergency though...