[triggers]

Really getting tired of being depressed! Just can't get over the edge. We r going on a camping trip tomorrow and I hope this mood of mine will go away! Have so much to get ready and no energy to do it! Help!

[Pikku Myy]

Very depressed.... Inpatient at the hospital so I don't do anything stupid.

[triggers]

Originally Posted by flours

um, not doing anything.
basically seeking distraction. not so successful. I guess it's about time I get something useful to do again. but I'm scared it's going to be triggering. (just doing anything useful!)
so don't really know how to approach that.

I know the feeling! If you read my thread below I have to get stuff ready for a camping trip ! Hope I will enjoy it and not feel lousy like I am now!

[lizzyjb]

Busy day out, shopping and having time for myself. But my sister was there to f***k my day...
If she is not happy, nobody can be. Why the hell does She make all so difficult and unhappy to all people arround her? I can't understand. Let us live in peace!

[glok]

Pretty typical day.

[nakitakunai]

Nervous for tomorrow. The piece of bad news will be delivered to the person it concerns. My mother and I are very anxious to see how the person will handle it, especially since they already claim to be depressed with thoughts of the s-word. This could potentially be enough to push them over the edge. I really hope it isn't. Prayers, thoughts, virtual hugs would be appreciated.

[tigerlily84]

I'm facing financial difficulties with getting my car fixed. I still have the rental and my car won't be ready until Monday. I'm just irritated I guess. Not just about the car, but also my job and medical bills too. I don't really have much else going on for me. I'm trying to keep the sui thoughts at bay, I am. I'm just overwhelmed. I need a break.

[Juuso]

Today sucked... I wanted to try to get out to do something since I hadn't gotten out of bed for a while, so I did, but after staying out for a while, some of my family decided that now would be a great time to force me to go out with them, so I did. While out, basically all they did was talk bad about me because I haven't done anything useful all the time.. So close to giving up.

Today was a slow day at work. I got home and worked out. The workout went well. But it seemed like after that, things went downhill. I went to the pool area tonight. I had the hot tub to myself, but it felt too warm to stay in it for a while, being a very warm night. I wanted to go into the pool where it's cooler but there was a couple in there making out. So seeing that depressed me.

Tonight I got a message from my only friend saying that he went out to a play tonight. And tomorrow morning he will attend a meeting at church. I was hoping that we could get together tomorrow.

And tonight seems to be noisy. Over at the houses next door to where I live there are family parties. It makes me depressed to see it, with me being alone.

It seems like that's the way summer is. I really hate this time of year. I always have. This time of year drags for me. It seems like October is so far away. And the stretch from October to April goes so fast for me.

[freefallin]

I don't think I will ever experience happiness again.

[glok]

The ups and downs continue, but are more manageable.

[Nammu]

Finished PHP yesterday, start IOP Tuesday. They are looking to have IOP 5 days a week but right now it's Tuesday, Thursday and Friday. Makes more sense to me to have it Mon, Wed, and fri so the weekend isn't so long.....but I really don't have weekends as everyday is the same. Still 3 days a week I must get up and get dressed interact with people. Very scared of the new group as it is twice as large as the PHP group.

Mostly it was just 4 of us, others would occasionally start a group but not last more than a day, several of them only stayed for an hour or two. All of them came from inpatient and not really wanting to be there. Of the core group two came from the hospital and two of us specifically wanted a PHP group and no hospital. All of us wanted to be there, guess that's important part.

[eggplantlife]

I wish I had someone to talk to this morning. Some mornings are like that. I wish I had my dog. Most mornings are like that.

[herethennow]

I am exhausted and I don't feel like dealing with people. But nooooo an annual people-gathering thingy is coming soon.

Still trying to reason with myself for this unexplained bout of depression. I hate this.

[TheOriginalMe]

Tired, but less paranoid. I have no idea where the suspicion about my neighbour came from but I was truly frightened, imagining all sorts of bad stuff. I'm still suspicious but not as intensely so. Sometimes I think recovering from depression plays more tricks on us than becoming depressed

Well, I'm off my meds because I'm dumb. I've seen this play out a handful of times and I know what lies at the end but I still fall into the trap. The beast is back and all I want to do is isolate completely and throw out every mirror in the house because I don't recognize the person staring back at me. I can't move, I can't sleep and I am completely alone in this world. Time for a cry and an unsuccessful nap, I think.

[tigerlily84]

I've been stuck at home all day because my mom has the car. I don't really feel like seeing anyone, but at the same time I feel restless. I've been anxious off and on all day. Maybe going for a drive tonight will help me to relax a bit.

[Juuso]

Didn't do much today. Finally made the decision to go back to seeing a professional about my depression, was in a calm enough mood to actually think rationally for a minute. My friends, the few I have left, added me to a skype group in the morning and basically pleaded me to get help, so I finally decided that I will. Sort of worried what I'll think about it later though, on worse days I'm hardly thinking rationally about things..

[birdpumpkin]

Expecting severe storms early in the AM and throughout tomorrow. Anxiety trigger - I do not like strong winds and the possibility of no electric indefinitely!! Tornado risks and talking about what to do on the news if no electric. I want to curl up in my bed under the covers where I feel safe.

[freefallin]

I had some coffee, and it made my head stop hurting. Was really yummy, too. So there's some positivity from me.

[dandylin]

Feeling much better. Things are looking up for the moment and I am trying to enjoy it and not anticipate the downward slide that will eventually be

[nakitakunai]

Well, we did it. We delivered the bad news. And he actually took it relatively well. It seems like he's going to be okay. Thank you everyone for your hugs.

[lizzyjb]

Family have just left and i feel great for that. I need some peace now. Their visit stress me a lot

[JustTvTroping]

Everything's still good here, there was even a little rain last night...there's needs to be more of that where I live. The whole sef discovery thing is going smoothly: All of the learning is valuable information and the reflection is refreshing and aiding in insight.

[oliamble]

Have a nice great Sunday everyone. Really sunny here in S. Florida. Today just like any other day. Please keep your hopes up, don't give up, it takes a lot of efforts, it is a constant battle for us :-)