[ThisWayOut]

I don't know what to do. I'm so spent. I keep asking for help, but I don't think I'm being clear about it. I have a new therapist, and she's not really available. I don't want to land in the hospital. I don't know what they could do for me... I know I'm just panicking at the moment. I really wish I had someone I knew to talk to, but there's no one available. I don't want to do this anymore.

[gayleggg]

I have been where are, ThisWayOut. And truthfully I'm not for from it now.

I've suffer from depression for 30 years, some pretty could but most have left me feeling hopeless. I'm under the treatment of a psychiatrist and have been since the depression first hit me. I'm listed as bipolar II because I have had two manic episodes.

If your therapist is not of help to you find another one. You have to have a really good connection with your therapist. If I hadn't at one point I might not be here today. Not that today is a great day, but it's manageable.

Personally, I take meds, couldn't make it without them, but there are plenty who have found ways to manage their depression without using meds. I tried and all it did was land me in the hospital, so I quit fighting about taking meds and listened to my doctor.

Finding things to distract yourself helps. Getting outside with nature. If you love animals they are great healers. You have find whatever it is that distracts you the best. I read, but there was a time I couldn't concentrate enough to read. Meditation works well. These are just a few of the things I've found that help. But even with all that, I'm still struggling. Stress makes it worse and right now I just got let go from my job, which is totally freaking me out.

Anyway, sorry to ramble on. Wish you luck and peace.

[glok]

Hello, ThisWayOut. Please consider calling or emailing your therapist to make clear you need help NOW.

The Emergency Room is an option. So is 911 if you have thoughts of harming yourself.

I wish you well.

[jacko558]

I have been there too. That feeling of complete hopelessness is horrible. At times I felt like it wouldn't pass but it always does, even if it comes back at a later time. Keep holding on. I agree with Gayle. Try going for a walk outside. I know how difficult it is to do this when you have no motivation, but I think the fresh air and the little bit of exercise helps a bit. If anything it may distract you for a little bit at the very least.

I wish you luck

[ThisWayOut]

I ended up talking to my wife for a bit, and she reminded me i can take benadryl and sleep for a while. That was helpful... I'm trying to find yet another new therapist, but I doubt I'll be able to any time soon (financially limited to three organizations here:the one I'm at, one with a 6 month waiting list, and one with a 5 week waiting list). It's really frustrating.
I've called this t between sessions, and she would just send me to the er if I were suicidal and unable to stay safe (I can do that on my own if it gets that desperate). She doesn't have other availability. I keep trying to ask for more intensive help that is not inpatient, but it's very difficult to come by here...
I had gone out earlier in the day to the dog park. That helped a bit for the moment, but things were shot to **** again when I got home. I wish I could concentrate on reading or even watching tv or a movie or doing some art at times when the overwhelmed feeling sets in...
I really need more support, but have no idea how to get it right now. It sucks...

[Altered Moment]

Here is a good place. Sometimes there are free support groups available. The more people you have who understand the better.

For me I have had to learn to live with it and be patient. I don't think I had much choice in the matter. I have reached a certain level of acceptance of living with this disease. What sucks the worse is going from a period of doing really good back into one.

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[waterknob1234]

Hi ThisWayOut. I understand how you feel. I feel so upset and panicky so often, especially at work. No one else understands what this illness is like so we have to be here for each other. It sounds like you need a new therapist. Of course if things get too bad go to the ER or the hospital. It may be helpful to see a pdoc for psychiatric meds if you have not tried that route. I wish you all the best.