[Alone91]

I'm overweight, not pretty and I have no friends. I feel Luke a failure in every aspect of my life except work. I even fail at cutting-i can't make myself break the skin, I just end up with these pathetic scratches. I finally found the gut I want more than anything, he makes me actually want to live, but I mentioned to him that I thought he liked me, and he says I don't need a guy, do I'll take that as a no. I just lost my best friend because I refused to support her being with this jerk she met online who decided that I'm nothing because I'm depressed. She said that she cares about me but whenever I tried to talk to her she just seemed inconvenienced and said that talking to be was exhausting. But she obviously isn't a good friend because she abandoned me when I needed her more than anything. I thought that I was bwimg a good friend by not lying to her to make her happy. I feel like a horrible person, even though I try my best to make sure everyone else is happy. I can't deal with being alone anymore and I just wish it was all over

[TheOriginalMe]

So the guy you met, could he be a friend rather than a boyfriend? There could be lots of reasons why he doesn't want a relationship but he might value a friendship.

Your best friend, try to clear the air with her, agree to differ about her online fella. She probably lashed out at you and said stuff she regrets. If you can't clear the air then maybe you're right and your friendship has run its course, sometimes things work out like that.

You might not be able to do much about how pretty you are, but you can work on making the most of your assets (nice clothes, nice hair, a little makeup) and hard as it is most people can lose weight if they work at it. Don't give up on yourself just because you don't match up to the artificial conventions portrayed in the media.

Not being able to cut, probably means you have a nice, soft, supple skin and maybe has a little to do with cushioning from sub-cutaneous fat. That tells me your skin will age well and you won't be troubled by wrinkles (not much of a consolation right now, I know). Cutting is a horrible and addictive behaviour you really are better off not being able to do it, you are certainly not a failure because of not suceeding at cutting.

You recognise that you are not a failure at work, what is it you do? Concentrate on your ambitions for work, it is a much better distraction than cutting.

[Craniac]

I isolate. I remind myself that once people get to know me they will regret it so being alone is easier than trying to find people who will like me. I even go to church (my son has invited me the past few Sundays) and it increases my sense of isolation knowing these people have nothing to offer. God may but they don't.

Right now I am watching a television series I never saw. It's on Netflix. I actually look forward to that a bit. I also post on Google+. It makes me feel a little bit better just getting it all out over and over and over again.

Maybe this isn't the success story but it is my life.

[Alone91]

The guy is a really good friend, which actually makes it harder because he's the one person I can talk to. As for losing weight- I've dropped 4 dress sizes since easter. I work at a movie theatre. And the night I posted this I missed a dose of cymbalta, and was up crying almost all night. It was awful. I have talked to said guy again (he's been on vacation) and I feel much better. He makes me feel like I can do anything, which just makes me want him more...