Tell a secrete

Tell a secrete, a silly one, a funny one, one that does not let you live in peace.

Here is mine: I'm 26 and never had a girlfriend.

I have an innate fear of authority figures.

I have not had a girl friend in....i can't remember....at least ten years. It is not really a secret though.

I guess the secret is that I do not feel worthy of having one and don't see it as a possibility in my future. That is not a good way to think.

I think about death everyday.

When I was a child, I felt sorry for the box of cereal that I didn't choose each morning, especially if it was the same one each time.

I try to save as many insects that get trapped in my house and at work and let them out to make up for accidently squishing a slug when I was learning to my ride my bike... it made me cry I don't tell people the reason... so I guess that was my secret.

I try to save insects too . (A neighbour who intentionally and brutally harmed an insect/"creepy crawlie" I wont name made me cry too when I was little..)

I have this fear that I've ruined everyone's life...

What I believe most in life is that everyone has someone out there for them, someone who will love them until the end of days.

My secret... there's no one out there for me, no matter where life takes me.

When I heard songs on the radio as a child, I thought they had the bands there playing the songs. I could not figure out how they moved the bands so quickly in and out of the radio station.

I get scared by windy weather and thunderstorms.

I think it matters which sock goes on which foot, and if I get it wrong, the whole day could go topsy-turvy.

When shopping (for food) I have certain things I buy 2, 4, or 6 of. If they don't have as many as I normally buy, I won't get any.

I'm 21 and have never talked to a girl nor had any real life friends, not my secret, you should just know you're not alone.

I guess one of my secrets would be, I resent people for being happy and imagine horrible things happening to them to make me feel better. Though I would never actually wish for these things to happen.

my secret is that I do not want to be here.

I contemplated jumping off mountains while hiking the Appalachian Trail.

When I go hiking in RMNP or Arches, I stay away from the edges because the temptation is great

When I was little I was convinced that if the songs played on the radio, the music videos were playing on MTV. Imagine the disappointment when I would run into the house and the song on the radio didn't match the video.

I intend to live a double life, to satisfy all of the conflicting pieces of me.

I have never been married and no kids. That's not what I have chosen in my life. I am about upper middle aged and I feel a big sense of shame because I never succeeded with women.

Though I did come close to getting married a couple of times in the past. But they were a long time ago. With the first one, I loved her. But it was an off and on relationship. She told me that she wanted to get married to me but I turned her down because I felt like I was too young and she didn't seem dependable. I regretted not marrying her a few years later.

The second time was with a woman that I was not in love with. I liked her only as a friend, but she wanted more. She put pressure on me and I had to let her go. I never regretted my decision, but I did regret for has happened for me after that.

I deliberately didn't order my next lot of meds, and my partner believes me when I said I just 'forgot'. A week later and I've been doing a lot of forgetting to order them.....

No one in my family has any clue why I'm in therapy, they all have their guesses and assumptions, and they are all wrong.

My secret... uhm... I have loads... my secrets are disturbing and haunt the hell out of me, so I don't think there's any way I'm publicizing them on PC. >.< Mostly just stupid **** I did as a kid. I'll go for something funny that most people don't know, though...

I once flushed a bunch of my dad's eggs down the toilet, when I was a toddler. Also, I stole envelopes from him, also when I was very young, and then used them to post letters to my sister, as she did to me. xD To add insult to injury, when we ran out of envelopes, we used the used envelopes to make new envelopes by folding them up. I'm sure my dad was pleased. lol

Oh, I have one... I was once quite a little thief. I stole at school, I stole from a questionable friend, and even from a shop. I dunno why I did it... I know I didn't have much, but stealing? Anyway, I packed that crap in by around 16 I think. The thing I stole from the questionable friend? I confessed to my dad, crying, then later went back to his house, handed him the games, and apologized profusely. I still feel bad for that. I also stole a couple of quid from my dad, which I'm still extremely guilty for, because it's like... EVERYTHING he has done for me, and that's how I repay him? Man, I was such a [BEEP]. *angry face* Anyway, same story, I cried my eyes out confessing to him, and I think that was the last time. Weird feces we do when we're young, eh?

I was 22 or 23 before I had my first serious relationship; before that, it was silly stuff from when I was a kid. You're not the only one who lags behind with this stuff... I know how it feels. :\

I regularly wish for a Scrooge like story and to be visited by the 3 ghosts so that I could see how everyone's lives would be if I wasn't around.

Here are two:

Death fascinates me. Sometimes I visit reality websites to view images of accidents and crime scenes. This all started after the death of a friend. I guess this is my way of coming to terms with my mortality.

Some unknown person keeps trying to communicate with me through strange ways. This person always knows where I am. It is confusing and scary.