Hard day today

I'm feeling very low today. I've spent most of my day in bed. I get up for a little while and find myself going right back and going back to sleep. I got up about 45 minutes ago and ate something and I'm really struggling to keep myself up when all I really want to do is go back to bed again. I was having really bad dreams. When I sleep too much I usually have bad dreams.

I don't have therapy at all this upcoming week which is unusual for me. I have a weekly group and an individual T. Group is cancelled because of the holiday and I can't fit my individual T in because of my TMS appointments and work.

I have all day today, tomorrow, and Monday with nothing at all. No work because of the weekend and the holiday. I have such a hard time with unscheduled time. I can't seem to motivate myself to do anything.

((((((((( TheWell )))))))))

i'm sorry you are struggling so much.

Odd, was reading through this and was just putting tick, tick, tick next to each bit that pretty much summed up my day too (though different time zone as it's evening here now) and the dreams... same goes with therapy... my T is taking a week out for home study to keep her skills up to date and research a few things she needs to refresh.

As for work, well yeah... on the sick at the moment and it's a nightmare being stuck in with things surrounding you that could be done... but no motivation or drive to do so.

Sorry to see you having a crap day... hopefully, and these things do go up and down for me, tomorrow will be a little better!

((((TJ))))

You sound like me. I am off work today. I had plans to do all sorts of things but I was so exhausted I spent most of the day in bed. Unstructured time means I struggle to get off the couch. Hope you are feeling better soon. Holidays can be hard when they mess up your therapy schedule. Hugs to you.

I ended up going to back to bed again. I got up about 20 minutes ago. I am never going to be able to sleep tonight.