[lonewolf59]

I've come to realize that it's hopeless, I can't fight this illness any longer, no one can help me, because I'm the only one who can help myself. I don't want to live like this anymore. I need help right now, but no one will help me right now and these thoughts won't go away, I'll never win this fight, I want someone to tell me that it will be alright, but no, all they tell me is how difficult it will be, which makes me want to give up, I don't see the point in calling a hotline, they won't care or really listen. I give up. Depression wins.

[Roxygirl816]

You can't let depression win. It may take awhile to see even the smallest improvement but its still an improvement. Its hard to fight but its worth it and it will be alright. If ur not already seeing a T you should definitely consider it. If u are then talk to him/her about how your feeling. The most important part is that u realize you need help and you want it. That in itself goes a long way towards beating depression.
Hugs

[waterknob1234]

Hi lonewolf. We all have those real bad days and times when everything seems hopeless. I know because I have been there. Hang in there, find a distraction, music to listen to, something good to read. Keep posting here. I know it is hard because depression hurts. You feel like it will never get better, but at some point it will. Don't be afraid to call a hotline or go to a hospital if you don't feel safe. Best of wishes.

[lonewolf59]

But how can going to the hospital help me? It's just going to make me feel worse. My problems are too big for them to help me, I need immediate relief from this, and nothing can help that, these feelings will always be hovering over my mind, it's impossible, I can't do it. Why won't anybody help me?

[Idiot17]

Lonewolf, that sounds like something I could have written.
I hope you hang in there until the better days come (hopefully shortly). As they say better days will come.
Good luck