Wanting to go inpatient.

My thoughts are pulling me to want to be put into an inpatient hospital forever because it seems safer there. If you are very depressed they make sure you eat, wake up, take your meds, etc. I'm too afraid of the outside world, its cruel and dangerous and no place for a vunerable female who's had psychosis in the past. I'm so afraid I'll switch into psychotic depression and make a mockery of myself, end up being ridiculed then hurt. Also I don't think i'm on enough meds, I have so many mental problems. Schizoeffective. OCD since childhood (now going into GAD). Extreme social phobia, I stay home mostly. The depression and anxiety is so bad, i have no motivation in life to eat, get out of bed or do any important things. I'm afraid I'll end up homeless. Even simple tasks/decisions about everyday life are like doing a complex maths/physics equation, i feel anxious and suicidal. Is there any medication that could help me, especially with motivation? I'm desperate and cannot go on like this.

Are you on any medications or in therapy? You need to talk to your doctor and maybe change up the meds. perhaps even a short term inpatient visit would be of some help for you. I wish you well!

I have been taking Seroquel XL for over 4 years now. I used to also take venlafaxine XL. I think since stopping that things have gone downhill perhaps. I have a care-coordinator and I'm with CMHT.

Hi Oceanview,
Welcome to PC. From personal experience if you think you should probably be inpatient you are probably right. Over 7yrs ago I ended up in the hospital and was inpatient for only 5 days but those 5 days actually saved my life at the time. I really didn't go willing at first it was the love of some very caring individuals in my life that made it happen. I was scared to death to go but also knew I needed to be there to be safe. For me the day I went in was my rock bottom as it were. It has taken a tremendous amount of work with my therapist and medication changes over the years but I am in a much better place now. The road has not been easy along the way but it is well worth it on so many levels. Hang in there... If you ever want to send me a PM please feel free to do so I would be happy to talk and answer any questions you may have...

Please get in touch with your care coordinator. They should be able to get you an appt with a psychiatrist for a med review and they'll probably try intensive home support before admitting you.

Thankyou for your replies. Sorry for delay. My next psych review meeting will be around august time. I'm thinking of changing Seroquel to something else. E.g. Abilify. Also thinking of switching venlafaxine to fluoxetine. I have been getting really tearful and emotional. The horrible OCD thoughts are pestering me again. Negative thoughts seem to be clouding my mind and unable to get respite unless sleeping.

I agree with checking in with your care-coordinator and talking to that person to get some help. New medication may help. If you need to go to the hospital that may help too. I am sorry you are suffering. I wish you the best.

Sounds like you are struggling big time. Until you can see someone, do you have someone in your life willing to help? A pastor? A friend? A co-worker? Are you sure you can't call up your dr and let them know you're in crisis?

My heart goes out to you because your post describes my life. I am so sorry you are suffering so. In my country I'm afraid of inpatient because I could get stuck in the system, end up drugged in a fleabag Medicaid where I'm kept alive for my insurance.
Yes, I'm paranoid. But life sucks.

I'm like you. I need impatient but just keep barely hanging on. Living is just way too hard. Just getting help feels way too hard.

I used to find that when I was in a bad place, the more I tried to hang on the worse it got....but going inpatient would end up breaking the cycle & that was a welcome relief. There is nothing wrong with going inpatient when it's needed even if it's not for med changes which I always had to do because of horrible side effects they always had to monitor me constantly with any change.

I have started up the venlafaxine xl again. Day 4. I hope it works. It did last time and helped a suicidal crisis. I'm sorry for all your pain. I'm in the same boat.

I'm still taking nothing but terrified to gain back any weight. I'm only bipolar when on a antidepressant but I'd gladly take my highs back. I'd try Prozac again but it makes me hate food then when I go off later I gain 30 lbs.! But maybe I could try Lexapro again?
Hate waking up feeling dread everyday. I probably just need to be divorced.

You know, I didn't realize it at the time when my depression was so bad that it was my bad marriage because I had lost my career & everyone was pointing at that for being my problem.....but in reality, it was my bad marriage. While I had my career, I hid out in that, but when that was over (aerospace crashed in California), & I couldn't get another job, I ended up trapped in the bad marriage & ended up attempting suicide many times to try I get out.......glad I wasn't successful in reality because I was finally able to leave though it was 13 years later & now I own my own farm 2100 miles away. Moved to a place where I didn't know anyone & it was a good starting over place for me.......financial issues have caused the divorce to take longer than hoped for....had to resolve the issue with the IRS first....but the freedom away from the hell I was living in was the best thing EVER for my depression & for my anorexia.