[dazedandconfused0]

I finally met with a therapist.

The first time, I backed out at the last second, but about a week ago I actually went. However, I don't know if I can go back. The therapist said I have severe anxiety and depression even though I barely told her anything. It was all very nerve wracking and extremely uncomfortable, so I don't think I can go, ever. I'd rather stay in the comfort of my warm bed like I have been for the past couple weeks you know? Anyways, I really want to get help and fix this, but at the same time I can't to talk to anyone (in person) about how I am feeling. What do you think I should do? Just try and get some medicine from my GP or a psychiatrist and hope for the best?

Thanks.

[gayleggg]

Seeing a therapist is hard when you have anxiety issues, but I would encourage you to keep pushing against your comfort zone and keep going. It's not easy but it gives you a chance to face the anxiety with someone to help on the other side that is objective.

You probably would be better off seeing a psychiatrist if this is an ongoing issue. They comprehend how devastating it can be and treat you accordingly.

Hope you feel better soon.

[Idiot17]

It's tough but if you can see one try to do so.
((((((Hugs))))))

[vital]

Originally Posted by dazedandconfused0

I finally met with a therapist.

The first time, I backed out at the last second, but about a week ago I actually went. However, I don't know if I can go back. The therapist said I have severe anxiety and depression even though I barely told her anything. It was all very nerve wracking and extremely uncomfortable, so I don't think I can go, ever. I'd rather stay in the comfort of my warm bed like I have been for the past couple weeks you know? Anyways, I really want to get help and fix this, but at the same time I can't to talk to anyone (in person) about how I am feeling. What do you think I should do? Just try and get some medicine from my GP or a psychiatrist and hope for the best?

Thanks.

Hi dazed. As stressful as it might be, I think you should see your therapist again AND you should see your GP and tell him/her everything that's going on. You need the wisdom of someone who has seen this before and knows what to do. Plus, there are purely medical problems that can cause depression and you want to check for those for sure. What do you think?

- vital

[Frankbtl]

Hi dazedandconfused, welcome to PC, and hey, well done on making it to see a T this time around. I'm sure it wasn't at all easy for you, but you made it!!!!
It might be that the more you see her and the more you develop a relationship with her the easier it may get if you can gradually manage to work up to going again, or you might want to give it some time and try a different T?? One you may be able to feel just a little more comfortable with???
Still a big achievement that you made it to the appointment!!!!
A psychiatrist would be a good idea though...........there's a chance they may be more knowledgeable/experienced in what you're going through and sometimes medication can "get you in a place" whereas it's easier to make use of, and continue to make use of different coping skills which you may learn from a T or from elsewhere.
And if you have trouble talking to people/professionals in person.........maybe pre-plan what you want to say to them, write down what you want to say so you can focus on that, let them know you're uncomfortable from the start so as they can support you a bit better with that, and maybe take someone with you????
And maybe try to get used to talking about how you're feeling on here too..........lots of understanding and supportive people on here............
So good on you for recognizing you need/wanting help and reaching out for that. Just try to stick with it, hey??

Alison

[dazedandconfused0]

Originally Posted by gayleggg

Seeing a therapist is hard when you have anxiety issues, but I would encourage you to keep pushing against your comfort zone and keep going. It's not easy but it gives you a chance to face the anxiety with someone to help on the other side that is objective.

You probably would be better off seeing a psychiatrist if this is an ongoing issue. They comprehend how devastating it can be and treat you accordingly.

Hope you feel better soon.

Thank you for the reply. I actually haven't gone since the first visit. Honestly, it keeps getting worse and worse. It's so incredibly hard. One moment I feel completely fine and and even hopeful about seeing someone and the next I feel the opposite.

[dazedandconfused0]

Originally Posted by vital

Hi dazed. As stressful as it might be, I think you should see your therapist again AND you should see your GP and tell him/her everything that's going on. You need the wisdom of someone who has seen this before and knows what to do. Plus, there are purely medical problems that can cause depression and you want to check for those for sure. What do you think?

- vital

Thanks for the reply.
I actually went to my GP, well my pediatrician, for a completely unrelated reason. She asked me about all of this too and said I should start taking medicine. That was a while ago, nothing has really happened. My parents keep saying they would really like to keep this in the family and sort it out on our own, basically meaning they are against medicine and therapy. It was hard enough to basically beg them for one session and now it's hard to go back on my own. I'm not exactly sure what I should do? It just keeps getting worse and worse.

[dazedandconfused0]

Originally Posted by Frankbtl

Hi dazedandconfused, welcome to PC, and hey, well done on making it to see a T this time around. I'm sure it wasn't at all easy for you, but you made it!!!!
It might be that the more you see her and the more you develop a relationship with her the easier it may get if you can gradually manage to work up to going again, or you might want to give it some time and try a different T?? One you may be able to feel just a little more comfortable with???
Still a big achievement that you made it to the appointment!!!!
A psychiatrist would be a good idea though...........there's a chance they may be more knowledgeable/experienced in what you're going through and sometimes medication can "get you in a place" whereas it's easier to make use of, and continue to make use of different coping skills which you may learn from a T or from elsewhere.
And if you have trouble talking to people/professionals in person.........maybe pre-plan what you want to say to them, write down what you want to say so you can focus on that, let them know you're uncomfortable from the start so as they can support you a bit better with that, and maybe take someone with you????
And maybe try to get used to talking about how you're feeling on here too..........lots of understanding and supportive people on here............
So good on you for recognizing you need/wanting help and reaching out for that. Just try to stick with it, hey??

Alison

Thank you for the reply, Allison.
I actually never ended up going back to that therapist, or any therapist for that matter. The therapist I last went to and felt the least uncomfortable with actually told me to go to an inpatient facility right after our session. I went, they assessed me and I kind of had to lie a bit because I definitely did not want to stay there over night. Anyways, that was the day my parents basically found out about everything and after that they kind of freaked out I guess? They want to figure things out on our own, without medicine and therapy. I honestly felt kind of comfortable when I was alone with the therapist. I basically begged my parents for that session. And now I don't know what to do. I don't think they want me to see anyone or do anything about this "situation". And I don't know if I want to anymore either... If only there was one simple answer, right?

[Frankbtl]

Hi dazedandcofused, real credit to you for having concerns about "keeping it in the family"
Sometimes as well-meaning, understanding and supportive family members (if they are!!) can be it can still take some professional help to find a way through.
I don't know if it might help to keep on and on asking them for some "outside help"??? When you said they freaked out after you visiting the inpatient facility I'm wondering whether that was about panic, fear about how bad the depression..........may have been for you, but perhaps if they have time to adapt to/accept the way things are they may be more supportive in getting you help???? Maybe?????
Then otherwise could you perhaps visit your G.P/pediatrician and talk to them about it more........maybe they could take things a step further. Perhaps they could even speak to your parents for you, to help them "take on board" the help you need???
I do understand your concerns about going inpatient though, although the most important thing is for you to get the help you need, right??
And there may even be outpatient programmes you could move on to trying if...........??? Some people say that particuar outpatients programmes can be really helpful.
Just some thoughts.............

Alison