[Swaggyfishsticks]

I'm afraid that I'm going to be a serial killer. It's on my mind a lot. I'm pretty sure I'm a sociopath, which is ripping me to shreds. I want to live a normal life, get married, have kids, all that ****. But I don't think i'll be able to. Not if this keeps up. I can't blame it on the ocd anymore, something's wrong, far beyond anxiety. I don't want to be like those monsters that do those things, but I'm not right in the head. I need help. To answer a few questions, yes I'm in therapy and on meds. No I don't have plans to hurt anyone, but I get urges to. Do you think I need to be hospitalized long term? I don't appreciate or care about anyone else. I really want to though. I made my mom cry yesterday, and didn't feel an ounce of guilt. I should've, but didn't. My parents insist that there's been times where i loved and cared, but I can't remember any. What do you think about all this? Hospitalization, or no?

[CANDC]

Thoughts about harming others are only thoughts. When you start abusing others, that is a sign that things have gone too far.

Talk to your psychiatrist about the meds. Some meds have side affects that could explain some of the weird thoughts. Maybe the meds need to be adjusted or changed.

I am sad to hear you made your mother cry and did not have any feelings. This also could be a numbing from the meds. Talk to the doc about this too. This is not what is hoped the meds will do.

[kim_johnson]

Yeah... I think you should see if you can find someone who you can talk to... There is a world of difference between being afraid that you are a serial killer and actually being a serial killer. Especially with all the hollywood publicity that serial killers have... Perfectly nice people like Dexter etc...

[*Laurie*]

I am not a sociopath, but there are people I would like to kill. I might kill them if I could get a way with it. I, too, worry that I might kill someone - especially a certain person in my life who complicates my life a great deal.

Anyway, I also think meds can cause some of the feelings (or LACK of feelings). I really do encourage you to speak with your therapist or doctor.

[artichack]

I think you are reaching out for help......along with depression along for the ride....it sucks to have the little voice talking to you in your head...telling you to do things that you normally would never think of doing.....talk to your doc....tell him how your feeling....I had to.....it put me in the hospital....but the consequences of not talking would have landed me in jail....for life....what kind of help do you think you would get there? in prison? Best of luck...Artie

Hospitals are intended for people who are at imminent risk of suicide or homocide or gravely disabled. We are not talking eternal hospitalization. If it is a matter of life or death I would say yes Swag. Do you think it is needed?