[Breckman]

I'm new here.I've been diagnosed by the VA with severe depression so i feel i know what people in this forum are going through.I will say i feel more comfortable being around depressed people now than happy people,not sure that makes sense. Anyway i've been reading some of the post and don't you all feel alone.I'm not much of a motivator but i do know how eveyone here feels.The hopelessness,despair and tired of living feeling.Hell i've been depressed since 1986 i really don't know how i'm still alive.
Jeff

[gayleggg]

I'm sorry to hear you are suffering. I, too, suffer from depression. I find this to be a really helpful place to chat and get to know other people that understand. I don't think anyone understands it totally unless they suffer with it. It's great here because of all the understanding. I don't find it strange at all that you are more comfortable around depressed people. It's really hard to be with cheerful folks when you feel really lousy.

Thanks for posting.

Hi Jeff and welcome to Psych Central. I can say that I feel more comfortable around people with bipolar or depression too right now. In fact, the only 3 women I hang around with have bipolar or depression. I'm sorry you are hurting, but you will find lots of people on PC who know exactly how you feel and can identify with you - - I for one.

[Breckman]

Thanks for the support! Yes the posting/reading helps

[thickntired]

My therapist is always asking if I'm social or doing anything fun. I can't stomach being around "normal" people. I either have to act a role or risk being judged.

[Breckman]

Originally Posted by thickntired

My therapist is always asking if I'm social or doing anything fun. I can't stomach being around "normal" people. I either have to act a role or risk being judged.

thickntired i know exactly what your saying "normal" folks will never understand.

me too. i am glad that you're still alive, Breckman.

[tz90]

Hi Jeff, sorry to hear about your long time suffering. I feel similar, being around and talking to normal, happy people is a constant reminder that there's something wrong with us. Often it's making me nauseous even.

And sure, I've been feeling alone for a 10 years or so. Occasionally going outside and meeting the few people I know helps to distract my mind a bit, but ... idk.
Sometimes when talking to people, I realize that how we see the world is a skewed perception of reality.

[Breckman]

Originally Posted by tz90

Hi Jeff, sorry to hear about your long time suffering. I feel similar, being around and talking to normal, happy people is a constant reminder that there's something wrong with us. Often it's making me nauseous even.

And sure, I've been feeling alone for a 10 years or so. Occasionally going outside and meeting the few people I know helps to distract my mind a bit, but ... idk.
Sometimes when talking to people, I realize that how we see the world is a skewed perception of reality.

Yes i agree completely with everything you have said friend.This is why i avoid social settings at all cost these days. Even family functions...Its just a constant reminder of things that are no longer comprehendable to me-such as feeling good,feeling good about myself,laughing or whistling for no reason,etc...I feel physical illness after attending Thanksgiving,Christmas,parties etc

i am sorry to hear you're depressed.

what's going on with you at the moment?. (in terms of your life)

is their something that brings you some joy?

welcome to PC

[shn146]

Lots of hugs... Just by being here you are motivating us... we have to be there for each other as its difficult for a non depressed person to understand us... i am glad you have joined us...