Decision

Today the psychiatrist place called me for what seemed like a year on e waiting list. It may be more like 9 months. During the wait was hard as i was suicidal, but now i am okay. It was because of my friend. But i cried telling the decision to the other person. I still am not functioning. I am doing a lot of work on my own and i don't know maybe drug will help me.

But then when drug is gone it, i would be in same place. Always the same run around and i was able to get through depression without drugs.

I know here, people are like take the drug, but i really don't want to anymore. I really want to be helped deeper than just be covered up by drugs. I want to do with complete straight thought from my own being.

So i guess, as i write this i made the right decision for me.

But i still need help.

I still need to get a real job that makes good money.

I don't think drugs are the only solution, they are needed and effective for the most part. Psychotherapy, otherwise known as "talk therapy", for me, is a more helpful treatment, especially for depression. But if your depression is severe, then medication might be added to Psychotherapy. In your case, with your current state, I think talk therapy is all you need, hopefully.

I hope you get well soon, and find a job that is both non-stressful and a good money maker!

Yes, talk is what i need. I come here because it is where i can. Like i wrote before, it is hard for me to grt anywhere so this is where i can.

I am comfortable sort of at the place i am, but i know i need to grow up. I am already an adult but life situation seem to have reverted me back.

I know i am having help, but i need something else and i don't know what it is.

I called hotline and i haven't called in months as i was doing better.

They kind of made me feel worse. I am so stuck!!! People are trying to help me!!!!! But a lot of wrong things !!! So hard to know what is the right thing! She said i had depression and i need to take medication! They are always saying medication!!! No!!!! I don't know! I was on that road but didn't help!

Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So lost !!!!!! I am freaking out! I know i am.

I think you know better than anyone what you need. There are studies, after all, that show that medication is no more useful than therapy in some cases. By the time these drugs start working and you find the right one your episode can be over.

I'm in a similar situation…I was doing terribly before, now I'm better but not quite well, but I can't seem to get my life back on track. I desperately need a job too.

Are you able to see a therapist?

Hi eggplantlife,

There are lots of things to try that are quite promising as far as you feeling better. Here's what I think is the best plan:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

Lucky for you, many things that are good for depression happen to also be great for your health in general. I'd actually suggest starting with "SNAP CLUB" as described there. It's very easy to do and I think it's a good first step on your healing journey. As soon as you feel it - the feeling that you are doing something yourself and you really have the power to get better, that in itself will help a lot.

- vital

There are so many alternatives to drugs. You just have to find what works best for you. Just by starting this thread, you have taken action and will get answers

Not doing well for 3 days. I had been juicing for 3 weeks. Now i am eating but i made a mistake and had coffee. I think that might have triggered something.

I had been feeling good for couple of months. I felt like i was put together again. Now i feel like i might go insane. I woke up like an hour ago with someone in dream saying, "next stop insaneville." I did watch a crime drama so it might been offshoot from that. I also haven't dreamed much in years. So when i wake up with dream i tend to remember.

I debated to respond to a different trend or start new one.

I tried this. I forgot that i was trying this wt one point when the weather was hotter.

When i was on medication, i didnt think i was doing well. One person seem to think i am always doing well on medication and she's usual on one and she seems to be doing well on it. I don't think i did well.

I am so afraid again. I really have only a friend to help me. My family abandoned me and it is very scary. I was doing okay with family thing.

It is kind of hard with therapy as i don't live near one.

It is feeling very suck here is main reason, i guess. The solution is very scary and would let be very vulnerable. Very scared.

This is the best way i can take care of myself right now.

I am reminded that there are people out there getting open heart surgeries and are positive. I feel like scum that i can't lift myself up. If it is my choice then why do i choose this? I fight so hard to be positive. You do not know. All these people do not know. My own family who abandoned me do not know how hard i work fighting this. I work so hard and yet this is my life. So hard.