[mooncat1]

Everything seems to keep going downhill for me. My depression is getting worse by the day & I don't know how much more I can take.. It all started when my mom died, then my boyfriend & I started arguing more often about how I can't just "be happy" & now that's causing my relationship to take a turn for the worse, I can barely function on a day to day basis because all I want to do is sleep my sadness away because I don't feel like I have anyone here for me. I don't have a bond with my father or my brother.. I'm trying my absolute hardest to keep it together & act like nothings wrong, but it's just so hard when I really feel like breaking down crying. I isolate myself because of this as well, which causes me to think about painful memories & how everything seems to be falling apart. I don't know what to do anymore.. I'm going to therapy & I do take medications for my depression & anxiety, but I don't feel like it's helping whatsoever. I don't know... I just need some kind of support right now

I'm sorry for your loss. I know how bad it feels when everything around you is falling apart. It's very, very, hard to keep it together. I hope your T is good for you and helps you find comfort. Hang in there. One day at a time is all you can do.

[ManOfConstantSorrow]

Grief can take a very, very long time to heal, I hope your boyfriend and those around you will stand by you in this process.

[gayleggg]

(((((((mooncat)))))))

[artichack]

When I lost my father....I didn't mourn the loss....sure I cried a bit...but ran from the hurt...drinking....partying...and woke up one day severely depressed.....It's human to cry.....it releases emotions that can build up.....so you have every right to cry...I'm very sorry for your loss.....but mourning,crying, and remembering good times with your lost love one....allows the healing process to happen....