Bad day

Really sorry about what you are going through.

How about going for different kind of job that is less stressful. It might pay less but it still provide. You can rest and heal first or keep looking for another job in the field. And you can always call in sick, just to rest or job search. Maybe call in sick for few days and really job search.

Hugs.

I know everyone is sick of me posting all this. I am living in total misery. After 12 hour workdays I am too tired to even put together a resume and look for another job. Maybe I will do this Saturday. I feel like I am stuck in hell and no one cares. Too many things are going wrong everyday. My anti-depressants are not working. There are not enough anti-depressants for this.

Hi waterknob, I, for one am not sick of you posting all this, and I'm sure there are plenty of people on here who aren't either
It's good that you feel able to share what's going on for you........and thankyou (!!!)..........I, and I'm sure plenty of other people want to help you, or want to see you work through this
Now the resume........that sounds like something "hanging over you"/like it seems like a real big/hard task to do??? But do you think you could do just a little towards it every day, even if you just set by 10 minutes each day??? It's all going to add up, and maybe keep that goal in focus of managing to move on from where you're at now. And then just do what you can do to it on Saturday??
And perhaps try to keep an "open mind" to what job you might like to move onto, if you're not already!!
And the anti-depressants you're on, don't seem to be working, right??
Maybe the doses need altering, or maybe there are others which could work a lot better for you. Do you think you could check in with your doctor/pdoc about that?? As you know it's not uncommon for people to need changes in meds from time to time.........and perhaps you're just ready for that???
And don't forget we care, and if you want to talk..........

Alison

I'm sorry. I've been there. Hope you feel better soon.

Thanks everybody for your support. Today was a little better. One of the nurses put up a sign warning everybody to stop the bad attitudes and the abuse of the nursing staff. Everybody left me alone. There was no harassment. One of my mentally handicapped patients gave me a big hug. The head doctor will be in tomorrow and I will have to work with him all day. I dread it. I am on his bad list right now and he is the one giving me the most grief of lately. I will have to do procedures with him. No one else will come forward to help because nobody else wants to do procedures with him. I just pray he leaves me alone tomorrow. If people will just leave me alone everything would be okay.

This job has all but destroyed my self-esteem. Deep down I know I am intelligent, competent at a variety of things and capable. At work these people treat me like I am the most horrible, ignorant, terrible person ever created. This on top of an increasingly growing workload is what I deal with every day.

((((((Waterknob))))))

You just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other, I've been there and I really feel for you. I hope that things start looking up for you soon.

You are such a valued member of PC and a comfort to so many people here, I'm sure your patients in real life must feel better just knowing that you are there for them.

Hi waterknob, hoping that today with that doctor went better than you feared, but sending you hugs, regardless:

And...."Deep down I know I am intelligent, competent at a variety of things and capable" DON'T you go forgetting that, OK??!!!
Even keep telling yourself that if you need to............e.g. when you look in the mirror in the morning, when you're having breakfast, when you're about to go into work, when..........." As many times as you need to!!!

And......."At work these people treat me like I am the most horrible, ignorant, terrible person ever created", you know this says way more about them than it could ever possibly say about you, don't you??!!
Remember there will be people who do value you, just like TheOriginalMe said...........your patients...........and definitely us!!!



Alison

I appreciate the love and kindness of all of you. Today was a little better. I think everybody seemed to know that it was time to leave me alone and get off my case. One of the other nurses was upset and worried because I have been upset. She said she is about ready to resign. To tell the truth I am about ready to resign. I do not have another job to go to but I am tired.

I am also tired of everything in my life revolving around this job. One of my patients told me today there is going to be a Native American pow-wow in a neighboring town Saturday. I would love to go to the pow-wow. I love Native American stuff. I used to go to events like this all the time but now when Saturdays come along I am so exhausted I collapse.

Oddly enough, some people seemed to be bending over backwards to be helpful today. I wonder why. The same head doctor who has been on my case all week wanted to know why I am the only nurse who will help with his procedures. I did not know what to tell him. The other nurses don't really want to help with his procedures.

I have so much to do but now I am so tired. I have to do my son's tax return, finish my tax return, and I want to put together a resume to apply for a historical museum job. That is my goal for Saturday.

I have had the "big nervous breakdown" this week. But I shall get back up and keep on trying to make a better life and better world for myself.

I have a ton of clerical work at the office that is so far behind. I don't know what to do since we are never given any time anymore to work on it.

I appreciate everyone's kindness.

Sorry for your bad day...hoping tomorrow is better!!