Doing terrible, i'vve given in to the cruelty........god help

Hi its been a few days since I've posted, I feel left behind in this world. I saw my therapist thursday, he really has no treatment for me, its so strange.

My psyciatrist recommended him saying he was the "best" in the area, well I saw herr on tuesday of this week, she asked whats he trying with you treatment wise, I said after thinking "nothing", and thats true he hasnt recommended anything....its as if he knows nothing to help me.......................

Well as I said I saw him thursday and basicly said he wasnt helping, and that im giving up on professional help itis ridiclous for me, its nothing, its a 45min session of ******** to me, they dont give me anything to improve on other then in the session itself, when i leave its the same again.

Lately I noticed that being "nice" wasnt cutting it in my life, im so lovable, caring, and all things good that I want to turn evil....so lately I've been acting on it........and still I don't fit in with the society.......and no no its not the teenage society, its the adult. Adults dont even understand me........

What do I do? I'm living a lie ........of fear, of hope that wont be helped........

moonkin, if you have closed your mind to the possibility of receiving help........then nothing is going to happen for you. but, if you can re-arrange some of your thought processes and try to open your heart to what people are doing with you, i think you'll find your way out of this.

it's hard. we've all been there and i have had to work my butt off and admit mistakes and suck it up......i'd love for my life to be uncomplicated and easy....but it ain't happening. so, i work on what i can change within myself and try to move forward......

love, pat

I havent closed my mind to help, the past 3 years have been EXTREMELY difficult, i've been to 3 therapista and dozens of meds, but i havent given up. But I swear its doing me no good, there not offering any out of officer help meaning, other then a 45min sesssion I have nothing to help me...........arent they supposed to give you things to do or try to better your life?

Have you ever tried Cognitive Behaviour Therapy? I used to get frustrated with my appointments with my psychiatrist, so I can relate to what you're saying. I felt like those appointments were a waste of time because all we did was talk. That kind of therapy works very well for some people, but it just wasn't right for me. The talking didn't make me feel better or change anything in my life.

Once I started CBT, though, things started to improve. I liked that my therapist gave me things to work on. I basically had homework every time I left an appointment -- techniques to practice, things to do -- and then we would discuss them in my next appointment and work on new things. That kind of therapy worked very well for me. It made me feel like I was being proactive and I was actually DOING something to improve my thought processes and my responses to situations.