[Fuzzybear]

I sometimes wonder if I still have a "worthwhile" purpose in life. I sure don't feel it at times - so much pain and so "cut off" from things I'd love to be doing if I didn't have this horrible depression, anxiety (and allergies )

I take some positive steps and I hit another unforgiving brick wall. Grrrrr!

Sometimes it feels like there are unforgiving walls all around me... I know there is light, just so sick of the scary crap in my life, which is very real

wondering, can anyone relate to any of this (am I a "freak" )

No, I'm a bear



Grrrrrrr

[gayleggg]

Fuzzy, you are definitely not a freak.

I have a lot of the same feelings. Just when I think things are getting better the depression comes closing in again. I have anxiety that keeps me from doing things that I would enjoy doing. Just like today, I had a chance to get out of the house and do something with a friend but chose to stay at home where it's safe. I'm lucky, I don't have allergies like you, but it still doesn't make you a freak.

You are a kind and loving bear, that for some reason, beyond my scope of understanding, has to suffer. I hope you find that light that seems elusive. I pray that you find peace in this crazy world. Just know that you are loved.

I can relate to you so much. You're not a freak. You've been through some awful things that NEVER should have happened. It's okay to feel the way you do but your purpose is very much existent and important. You are a valuable and kind person

[Rohag]

((((((( Fuzzybear )))))))

If you are genuinely a "freak", then "freak" becomes a compliment.

Since depression and anxiety (and a few other things) crept into my life, my world has closed in on me and I lead a greatly diminished existence. With that, I find it hard to care I lead a greatly diminished existence.

Originally Posted by 8888an8888

It's okay to feel the way you do but your purpose is very much existent and important. You are a valuable and kind person

True.

[pearlys]

I can definately relate, i feel exactly the same. Depression, anxiety and nothing seems to work. I stay at home cuz thats the only place i feel safe.
I also feel like a freak but then i try to think: my illness makes me think like this. One day im gonna be ok again. So do you.

[Frankbtl]

Hi Fuzzy, you're not a freak, I'm sure lots of people are going to relate to the way you're feeling
Besides I know you wouldn't be calling anyone a freak anyway........no such thing, right??!!
And you know, you're always going to be a worthwhile person to us, however hard it is.......maybe your worthwhile purpose is to be the amazing person you are???
And hopefully at some point you can be that amazing person you are without the depression. Just keep trying with those positive steps, hey?? Each and every one counts no matter where they land. You do deserve better and we're with you on the road

Alison