It's almost impossible to have 1 set of emotion, meaning all things positive , or all things negative. Lately(rather the past 5 years) I've lived a very odd life, and am just coming to realazation to it. Its what I call the sad-happy sendrome, in which I have really good experiences in short yet my minds "eye" flips it into its reality. To make more sense of this I'll give a example.

I'm a teenager , I just turned 17 now in my Junior HS year. I'm not a rebellioning teen like most "I" see altho I do have certain points of hatred for the world. Ok, my thoughts are always in distress of depressioni when I smile, my mind is crying, when my mind smiles, I cry physically(if that makes sense) .

Its so crazy no matter what I do , I feel guilty that I should be sad, and the feeling "is" good. I enjoy being sad, not because its sad but beacuse its easy, and like all things, its common and not a change. If you smoke for 10 years its gonna be hard to quit then if you smoked 10 days, naturaly because the addiction and need builds.

My therapist and I meet thursday, its to say the least dredful in my mind, eevery appointment thus far hasnt been as expected, in a negative sense...........

[MissCharlotte]

Moonkin,

Your post actually makes a lot of sense. You are wiser than most of your peers because what you are describing are the "grey" areas of life. Deep down, no-one really feels all one way or another and sometimes depression and negative feelnings are good because we are releasing emotions that need to come out even if they feel crummy. You may be experiencing a sense of relief at times, although it can feel like an internal conflict because the topic is sad/depressing. I urge you to tell your T about these feelings. Good luck.

[pegasus]

Yes, it's possible to be deeply sad and feel happy for other people at the same time.

And sometimes we have to wear a mask to get through the day.

Often the deep sadness is from something that has happened to us in the past and somehow got stuck.

I'm glad to hear you are seeing a therapist, it can be tough going but stick with it, it's worth it.

[bipolar_bear]

I am glad you are seeing your t on Thursday. Hopefully you can bring up some of these concerns and start to work on them. Feelings are feelings and just what they are; not right or wrong or should or shouldn'ts. Just a thought there. Good luck on Thursday.

BB