[Forever hopeful]

Hi peoples,, still around everyday just not participating as much in writing.. Ok so I still haven't started bupropion had them for 3 mths now and been med free for almost 5 I said I would give it to fall to see how I did without anything in years.

Some things have improved but changed I'm not in bed depressed anymore I can do things like shower, clean but I am irritable and angry all the time I have never experienced this kind of anger almost constant.. Like I am pissed at almost everything everyone and all my life experiences. Then I break down and cry throughout out the day too with just complete sadness. So much has been going on stresses but not all bad. The bad stuff though is hampering the good stuff I am trying to do / start.

Anyone else experience this it's so new to me.

[Rohag]

I have not experienced the kind of anger-sadness cycle you describe, and that's probably due to the nature of my depression (more emptiness/lack of emotion than intense emotion). It is, after all, a mood disorder where moods and emotions don't sync well or not at all with normal stimuli.

Have you been able to confer with your doctor about these changes you've had?

[kaliope]

depression can cause anger. crying all the time and sadness is a sign of depression. do you have a professional you can talk to.

[waterknob1234]

There are times I have felt anger with my depression. And there are times I have had crying spells. Hope you feel better soon.

Hi, forever hopeful.....

Not to pry, but...

Man? Woman? Age?
Personal questions for sure and not necessary to answer on a public forum.....Just something to think about....

[Forever hopeful]

Hi thank you everyone least I know it's as normal as can be with this illness..

I only have my family Dr I can talk to him about anything he takes the extra time to listen carefully.. I am waiting for pysch there is a long waiting list in my city we have a shortage :/...

I am female , no not menopausal age, my cycles are like clockwork always have been lucky there but each mth never know how bad pms will get sometimes I am lucky but most times not more intense havoc emotions . .

I can't afford a psychologist or even a therapist right now and do need one badly... I also need to get on my meds.. I get panicked by the thought even. Last time I tapered up in crumbs practically with celexa till I was at 40 mg. I can't do that with Wellbutrin xl even though my dr has counselled me each time I have gone to see him why xl is better, smoother . I am looking forward to feeling better if I can only get past the wall to start it .

I guess I was so used to one or two emotion or non at all to have these intense emotions even though it's really only 2 still freaked me out..

[Sprite22]

Sounds like a manic mood swing. Hope it gets better for you. Meds bug me too, but then I am happy to have some kind of normal with them. Might think twice about staying med free. If it is as bad as you say.

[Forever hopeful]

Originally Posted by Sprite22

Sounds like a manic mood swing. Hope it gets better for you. Meds bug me too, but then I am happy to have some kind of normal with them. Might think twice about staying med free. If it is as bad as you say.

Yes I will be going back on meds as soon as I get the courage
I have wondered at times if I had some spectrum of manic but after all the research I have done and friends/ family I have with it no it would not be manic I believe. I don't know really just that this is new

[Forever hopeful]

Just have to vent so it's out I am still f%*#*ing angry , raging inside... At the same time my heart hurts and I feel hopeless to fix any of it .. At least when my quote normal depression the constant void and not caring about anything, no energy to do anything flat out on my back with a few crying spells is familiar normal to me..

I don't even know who the hell I am right now or what do with rage and anger... Cause none of what I could do is productive it's so filled with hate of everything this rage. I feel like I could just explode

[festidump]

I feel angry nearly all the time. When I'm not angry I'm numb or too depressed to get out of bed. It's a horrid emotion that has alienated most of my family and friends who really don't understand what I'm going through. It's like I get angry at the world for not helping me with my depression yet when I'm depressed I won't let anyone help me. Vicious circle. I read up on anger management when I'm not angry but can't apply it when I am. You aren't alone. Hopefully with time we can both heal and deal with our emotions in a healthier way. Big hugs going your way.