I am at my friend's place currently keeping an eye on her to stop her from killing herself. We met in hospital and both got discharged on the same day and have spent a lot of time together.

The whole time she has been struggling with suicidal thoughts but I didn't realise, she admitted she lied to get discharged from hospital. It's got worse this week after her gf broke up with her. We ended up in A&E on Tuesday night because of how bad she was feeling, they let her go and hoped to try to manage it in the community with the crisis team. They want to admit her because she isn't working with them but she refused. So I'm staying with her until the people turn up to assess her under the mental health act and most likely section her.

I find it very weird to be in this situation. Only two months ago I was in the same state, couldn't listen to reason, couldn't see any way forward. And now I'm probably feeling the best I have in several years. Which I am so grateful for as I probably wouldn't be able to cope with this right now otherwise.

I'm aware that this is having some affect on my mood though. I'm trying to just push through and not let my mind wander in a bad direction. So I'm just venting here trying to make sense of everything in my own head.

[Tauren]

It's good of you to be with her.

I hope you stay well yourself. Sending you some good thoughts. This must be difficult after what you went through just a while ago. Take care of yourself

[TheOriginalMe]

((((((Secretwhisper))))))

[francisR]

hi Secretwhhisper

I think you are doing a really great job staying with your friend to support her through this crisis. Just try impressing on her that suicide would totally ruin the lives of her loved ones that would never recover from the bad feelings. Is there anyway you can contact the crisis people to see if they can come out more quickly? I hope and pray your friend gets the help she needs to make a good recovery. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((( secretwhisper )))))))))))

[TheOriginalMe]

How is your friend doing now? Are you doing ok?

I stayed with my friend all day Thursday, she eventually agreed to go in voluntarily and was picked up around 11pm, I travelled up with her. She's struggling but hopefully something will change for her soon. I'm going to visit her tomorrow, she has asked for lots of comfort food

I'm doing ok. I'm not as "up" as I was, but I'm not down either. Just kinda normal I guess..whatever that is! It's a relief that she is in a safe place now though

I am literally terrified that I'm going to lose my friend. I saw her today and she is in such a bad place. The hospital she is in isn't secure enough. It would be so easy for her to run, so easy for her to get her hands on things that will hurt her.

Without realising I bought her something that could be used to cause serious harm. Luckily I managed to persuade her to tell me the plan and give me back the item in question. But she was already coming up with other plans, other things she could use. I just don't know what to do. I wish that I could stay with her 24/7. It's not an option. I thought she was going to be safe in hospital, but this is really the wrong hospital for her to be in. But a lack of beds means there is no alternative for now.

This whole thing is triggering me pretty bad tonight. I want to be there for my friend, but at the same time it is sending me crashing. I just don't know what to do

[vital]

Originally Posted by secretwhisper

I am literally terrified that I'm going to lose my friend. I saw her today and she is in such a bad place. The hospital she is in isn't secure enough. It would be so easy for her to run, so easy for her to get her hands on things that will hurt her.

Without realising I bought her something that could be used to cause serious harm. Luckily I managed to persuade her to tell me the plan and give me back the item in question. But she was already coming up with other plans, other things she could use. I just don't know what to do. I wish that I could stay with her 24/7. It's not an option. I thought she was going to be safe in hospital, but this is really the wrong hospital for her to be in. But a lack of beds means there is no alternative for now.

This whole thing is triggering me pretty bad tonight. I want to be there for my friend, but at the same time it is sending me crashing. I just don't know what to do

Is the hospital aware of her intentions? I know it might be difficult, but it might be best to tell them if they don't already know.

It's a tough spot and I'm sure you're doing your best.

- vital

[spring2014]

that's good you're with her sercetwhisper . she needs a friend right now . the best thing that you can do if she is having suicidal ideation thoughts if she does call 9-1-1 and call the Suicide Prevention Hotline . also does your friend has a therapist that she can get in contact with or you can contact her therapist for help ? I know the feelings secertwhisper . I was able to get out of the suicidal ideation thoughts just by talking to my therapist on the phone and calling the Suicide Prevention Hotline today .









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[waterknob1234]

Hi Secretwhisper. It is good that you have been helping your friend and standing behind her. I know it gets hard, and causes worry. I agree with talking to someone at the hospital to let them know how bad off she really is. Maybe they could watch her better. I also know you cannot be with her 24/7. The best thing you can probably do for her at this point is to keep contact with her, continue to support her, and offer her love and compassion.

Don't neglect to take care of yourself though. I will keep you both in my thoughts and prayers.

[francisR]

hi Secretwhisper

You are doing the very best you can to save your friend and be there for her. I'm sorry that the hospital is not as secure as it should be. The only thing I can suggest is to have a word with the nursing staff there to explain that your friend is coming up with these plans to do herself harm and to ask them to keep a very close watch on her. I hope and pray they will decide to do that. Hopefully a bed in a better hospital will become available soon. Keeping a check on that situation would be helpful. I hope and pray your friend gets much better soon. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis

I'm on my way to see her again. I was gonna just stay home but she said some things that made me really concerned for her. I'm hoping that I can get it out of her what she is planning to do, and I will definitely be telling staff. I felt ok leaving her last night as she was on a 1-1 so someone is watching her the whole time, but she told me earlier she is being taken off it tonight. Hopefully they will take what I say seriously and keep her on 1-1. There isn't much more I can do. I am trying to mentally prepare myself for the worst..

[waterknob1234]

Keeping both of you in my prayers.

[TheOriginalMe]

I hope things are ok with your friend. As your friend I want you to know that you are amazing and just a gentle reminder that you must not forget about taking good care of yourself.

I am so ****ed off right now. I told the nurse in charge that my friend had really strong urges to harm herself and had the means and that she needed to be on 1-1 so they could stop her... The nurse assured me she would speak to the doctor so he could assess her and decide what to do. Well that didn't ****ing happen.

When I left to go home I kept texting my friend, just trying to distract her and encourage her to take her meds, try and sleep etc etc. There wasn't anymore that I could do. It wasn't enough.

Possible trigger:

She smashed a light bulb and made several cuts in an attempt to kill herself, thankfully she couldn't find a vein. But she was going to keep on trying until she was successful.

Obviously I couldn't let her do that so I phoned the ward and let them know. Someone is now with her. I just hope they take it seriously now. If they had just ****ing listened to me in the first place it wouldn't have even happened!

[TheOriginalMe]

Is your friend any safer yet?

She is back on a 1-1, can't even use the toilet without someone watching her so yeah, much safer.

How are you doing, SW? Are you coping?

I'm doing ok thanks. Coping ok I think, things seem to have calmed down a bit so I'm not so worried anymore. Hopefully this calm lasts...