[veiledregret1234]

After almost 20 years of anxiety and depression, I'm currently on my way home to be with my family as we suffer through my youngest brother's suicide. My heart is broken, I've struggled with suicidal thoughts for as long as I can remember. After all that I feel like a terrible sister for not seeing the pain he was in. I feel responsible, I don't know how to process this. He was so kind and wonderful, he deserved so much better than this.

[gayleggg]

I'm so sorry for your loss. But you can't blame yourself. It was his decision. Some of us are very good at hiding our pain. Your brother wouldn't want you to blame yourself. Sending hugs and prayers.

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[francisR]

hi Veiledregret 1234

I am very sorry for your loss. Your brother is with the Lord that which is the important thing and I hope and pray he brings healing for you and the family. You did the very best you can for him and no one can do more than that. As has been said he would not want you to blame yourself but to recover from depression and lead a happy life.
Don't worry about suicidal thoughts. They are just thoughts and can't make us do anything we don't want to. Perhaps seeing a counselor at this point would be a good idea. Perhaps the Dr. could strengthen the medication for depression for you. also. I hope and pray you feel much better soon. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis

[vital]

Originally Posted by veiledregret1234

After almost 20 years of anxiety and depression, I'm currently on my way home to be with my family as we suffer through my youngest brother's suicide. My heart is broken, I've struggled with suicidal thoughts for as long as I can remember. After all that I feel like a terrible sister for not seeing the pain he was in. I feel responsible, I don't know how to process this. He was so kind and wonderful, he deserved so much better than this.

I'm so sorry for you and your family veiled. I'm sure it's going to be hard for a while.

I know that you know that we can't ultimately be responsible for others. Unfortunately, knowing that doesn't help much. If you have any spiritual practice in your life, this would be the time for it.

- vital

[veiledregret1234]

One small good came of all this. I was finally able to sit down with my father and open up about how long I've been struggling to pretend it's all okay and get some insight into how he and I got to where we were. I was also able to hug my other brother for the first time in his 31 years of life.

[arabianhorselover]

So sorry for your loss, and so glad that some good things are coming out of it. It is sad, but it is often the case that people don't get honest until there is a crisis.

[Clara22]

Thank you for sharing this. I hope you heal little by little. I am sending you a hug

[spring2014]

Originally Posted by veiledregret1234

After almost 20 years of anxiety and depression, I'm currently on my way home to be with my family as we suffer through my youngest brother's suicide. My heart is broken, I've struggled with suicidal thoughts for as long as I can remember. After all that I feel like a terrible sister for not seeing the pain he was in. I feel responsible, I don't know how to process this. He was so kind and wonderful, he deserved so much better than this.

hi regret,
im so sorry for your loss.its not your fault that your youngest brother committed suicide. you are not a terrible sister . I too suffer from anxiety and depression. do you have a therapist that you can talk to about it ? if you do go see your therapist asap . if not call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-8255
they can help to dew w those suicidal ideation thoughts. be gentle on yourself it takes time to heal from a loss of a loved one from suicide .







Diagnosis: Anxiety and depression
meds: Cymbalta 90mgs at night
Vistrail 2 25 mgs daily for anxiety prn
50 mgs at night for insomnia

[veiledregret1234]

I've been trying to take it easy as I navigate this. Minimize stress and stay busy. It's helped some. I've also been trying to stay in touch with my family more. Trying to be there for all of them so nothing like this happens again.

[spring2014]

Originally Posted by veiledregret1234

I've been trying to take it easy as I navigate this. Minimize stress and stay busy. It's helped some. I've also been trying to stay in touch with my family more. Trying to be there for all of them so nothing like this happens again.

hi regret ,
here's a list of coping skills that my therapist taught me on how deal with high anxiety
For High Anxiety
1) Physical activity
2) Deep breathing
3) Mindfulness box
4) Guided imagery
5) Progressive relaxation exercises
6) Diversions and distractions
7) Counteracting thoughts
a. Think positive
8) Relaxation techniques
9) Journaling
10) Mindfulness meditation
11) STOP technique for impulses and conflicts and negative thinking









Diagnosis: Anxiety and depression
meds: Cymbalta 90mgs at night
Vistrail 2 25 mgs daily for anxiety prn
50 mgs at night for insomnia