[Nicoleresati]

Quite a lot has happened since the last time I've posted. Especially within the past week. I went and saw a Psychiatrist at the beginning of the month which was an experience I was put on 100mg of zoloft in the morning and 25/50 mg of Trazadone at night. The Trazadone hasn't worked at all. I still have not been able to sleep. So this past week I took 450 mg and a xanax and it still did nothing for me. My intention was to take the whole bottle of trazadone, but I was worried it wouldn't kill me and then I wouldn't have had any left. I told my Therapist about all of this and more and my father was called and I had to go to a Psychiatric hospital to get an evaluation, or else. I went had it done, and didn't meet the criteria, but I lied. I lied on several of the questions she asked because I don't want to be there and was afraid they might have kept me.
Everyone who knows I've lied is acting as if I'm crazy for lying.
Now my Therapist obviously doesn't want to see me..I really think she is trying to ruin me and I don't know why. I tried being honest and she couldn't handle it. Now I don't know what to do. I can't trust anyone with anything I say or trust anyone with anything for that matter. I don't know if the zoloft is working. It's only been 2 1/2 weeks or so and I know it takes 4/6. I just think I'm having a difficult time, and I'm hurt. I feel betrayed and I just want to be alone although I can't stand it. I want to disappear for awhile and get my head straight.

[Rohag]

Hello, Nicoleresati.

Possible trigger:

Originally Posted by Nicoleresati

My intention was to take the whole bottle of trazadone, but I was worried it wouldn't kill me and then I wouldn't have had any left. I told my Therapist about all of this...

Guess: When you told your therapist about your intention to harm yourself, state law obligated her to get you formally evaluated for suicidality.

I'm sorry the Trazodone hasn't helped your sleep. Sleep is critical in managing depression. In the long run, getting your sleep under control may be one of the best things for you.

[spring2014]

omg Nicoleresati,
I feel for you but don't kill yourself !!!!!!call the Suicide Prevention Hotline . they will help you out .I called them many times and they help me out of committing suicide . my therapist help me too . you need coping skills . here's my list of coping skills that my therapist and I worked in counseling :
For High Anxiety
1) Physical activity
2) Deep breathing
3) Mindfulness box
4) Guided imagery
5) Progressive muscle relaxation exercises
6) Diversions
7) Counteracting thoughts
a. Think positive
b. Suicide is wrong according to God's plans
8) Relaxation techniques
9) Journaling
10) Mindfulness meditation
11) STOP technique








Diagnosis: Anxiety and depression
meds: Cymbalta 90mgs at night
Vistrail 2 25 mgs daily for anxiety prn
50 mgs at night for insomnia

[Pierro]

the best thing for you,is, in my opinion is go back to see your psych. Tell him/her the meds have not worked for sleep and you can try something else. When we are deprived of sleep we are not thinking straight.. I know and I have battled with this for years. You can pm me if you want to talk.

Best wishes

[Fuzzybear]

[*Laurie*]

Insomnia and sleep deprivation is enough to push anyone over the edge. btw, Trazodone doesn't do a thing to help me sleep.

[CANDC]

Sorry you are not sleeping - that is so important. Zoloft also has side affects of suicidal thoughts. If you were not having suicidal thoughts until after taking Zoloft, or they are worse after starting Zoloft, ask your psychiatrist what other meds could be tried instead. https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=...03388427,d.cWw

https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=...03388427,d.cWw

Having a safety plan is important too. Here is more on that.
Suicide Safety Plans | Channel N

Here are emergency phone numbers that can be part of your safety plan
Common Hotline Phone Numbers | Psych Central

Telephone, Hotlines and Help lines | Psych Central

Here is a suicide prevention manual that also talks about safety plans.
https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=...26C1yI99gnhIbA

[emijec]

I think Pierro is right. regardless of what you think your therapist may omthibk of you. trazodone didn't work for me either. only gave me 3 hours of sleep. is that what happened? or no sleep? I say get as specific as possible with your doctor get the medication right and switch to someone else if that person isn't helping u