Feeling so alone and quiet................................... ...................

I am feeling so alone and quiet and afraid to reach out. I so just need someone to sit with me and just let me know that I am not alone. My inside world is colliding with the outside real world and it is suffocating me.

The grip around my kneck feels so tight that I cannot breath. I just need to know that someone is out there and can hear me.

I try to write and I am blocked by something that is holding me back. I try to reach but I feel I am being pulled back by a force that is not mine.

I want so much to talk but it is like my mouth is sealed. I cry but in silence. Inside I am screaming but to no avail as nothing comes out.

Fear so paralizing that it hurts. All I can is try to push this send button instead of delete.

purplesecrets

I understand and I am here for you. I hear you very clearly.

Take your time. Write and post what you can. Share a small bit at a time. There is no rush. We are standing by your side.

Take good care!

I'm here (well in and out). If you don't mind a little slippery frog reaching out.....

((((((((((purplesecrets))))))))))

You're not alone, people care....I care.

P.S. you don't need a word to post....sometimes a "use smiles" selection says it all.

Thank you timeo and keb. Right now I am just crying because of your thoughtfulness. I cannot say anything right now but thank you for caring.

purplesecrets

I know that feeling all too well.

Here's another hug just because

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Purplesecrets

There are many people here for you, but it sounds like you physically need to be near someone. If you can go out - do it - even if it's just to the drug store, grocery store, etc. Try to do something that will get your mind off things.

The more you think the harder it will be for the words to come.

((((hugs))))))
Tranquility

purplesecrets, I know how you feel

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sending you warmth and care

Quietly I sit beside you
Gently holding your hand
No words need to be spoken
The sound of breathing can be heard

Breathe in deeply, slowly, exhale
Cleansing lungs and mind
Let the moment we're together
Take you from you fear, your tears

I'm sitting right beside you close
Feel the warmth of my hand
Together we'll get through this time
When words have no meaning, no sound

I say a prayer, nay many of them
To bring you peace and strength
I hope you feel this friendship
Brings understanding and hope



*Gentle Hugs*
Jean

I know its not the same, but we are all here for you. We are patient, and good listeners. But most of all we care, and want you to not feel so alone. There are many of us here who can relate ... so if anything, take solace in that we understand.

Do you have anyone that can fill that void for you IRL? I know its hard to truly find much comfort over the computer as sometimes we need that physical touch in order to make us feel better.

Keep posting. Tell us how you are feeling. It might help to ease the pain a little bit.

Gentle hugs,
Jacq

Keb, tranquility, Fuzzybear, sabau2, jacq--

Thank you all so much. I just cannot write right now but I so appreciate you all so much. I am sorry that I cannot say much but you all mean sooo much to me. I cry just from your words. I need them so much. Thank you.

purplesecrets

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Big breaths and gather your thoughts...

<font color="blue"> Your heart is big and glows like the lonely moon in the sky....

Whats this I see stars, shining stars by the moons side.</font>

God Bless You

SpringStar

((((((((purple)))))))

thinking of you

Purple, You described so well feelings that are famaliar to me in my struggle to exist in the real world.

Everything in your mind seems so pointless, so determined, like there are no choices other than how your feeling.

I hope writing here help you move out of that space a little.

SpringStar, meander, and mouse,

Thank you. I find it hard to say the words but as I sit here my heart just pounds. THe voices inside are so loud that I can barely make out the humming of my computer. You words ring out and I grasp for each one of them. I so appreciate your thoughts and words. I am trying to come here and reach out. But I find it hard to even push the keys. But I so want to. Thank you again to each one of you.

purplesecrets

i'm on my way with sour cream cookies and tea..........xoxoxo pat

Thinking of you hon (((((((((((((((( purplesecrets ))))))))))))))))

How are you feeling now, Purple? Keep posting as much as you want to. ((purple))

Not to be too noisy ... can you give us a hint of what is happening IRL...you can see there are a lot of people here who are concerned...and desire to give you some relief and support...

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I'm sitting here quietly with you, ready to listen when you are ready to speak.

Hugssss
J

Pat, Fuzzybear, Meander, Direction, and Sabau2--

I just wanted to say thank you. I am trying but I am finding it hard to breath. I panick and I am so afraid. I promise, I will post as soon as I can. I am reaching but I am close to the edge. I so appreciate all of you and I so want to talk but I am have having trouble finding a voice right now. I cry at your kindness and the concern overwhelms me as no one has ever cared before. Thank you. I will talk in time, just sit with me please as I try to come to grips with it all.

purplesecrets

(((purple)))

Take as long as you need hon, just know that we're here for you if you do want to talk more.

Thinking of you!

Hey I hope it gets better. I know the feeling all too well.
Hopefully tomorrow will seem better.
txstarrynites

thinking of you and hoping all is well. noone is pushing, noone is rushing. post what you can when you can. we are supportive and patient. so take the time you need and know that you are safe here.

(((((((purplesecrets))))))))


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