Overwhelmed and confused

**Possible trigger**


I'm trying so hard to keep coping and stay out of the hospital for safety reasons but don't know if I can handle much more. I also have more than one personality which makes it even harder, resulting in safe and unsafe times. It seems to keep getting worse but I still have moments when I feel I OK and can deal with all the emotional/physical bombshells coming my way. Do I just focus on the good moments or is not sleeping enough, oversleeping, not eating and not caring anymore a sign to get more help? My decision making isn't great right now.

I think you should get help, if it is effecting your functioning. It isn't good to go on like that and not get help.

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Hi AllHere-- focusing on the good times helps, but as you say there are times when you feel you aren't safe. You say you want to stay out of the hospital for "safety reasons." What is it about the hospital you feel is unsafe? The fact that you feel it seems to keep getting worse, and that you're having trouble with your sleep cycle, with not eating, and with not caring all suggest really strongly that you need to get some help.

You can get put in a outpatient group if you don't want to go inpatient. I am currently in a outpatient depression IOP group. A psychiatrist sees you as well.

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Hospitals help me with nothing I don't already know and make me go to useless addiction groups. My personalities are never allowed out but all other patients can behave according to their disgnoses. I should have written that I need to go the hospital for safety reasons but don't trust the psychiatrists who are there now. I went there last year to see a friend and the psychiatrists are very controlling men who will trigger my abusive past.

My reply to Mountainboard:
Hospitals help me with nothing I don't already know and make me go to useless addiction groups. My personalities are never allowed out but all other patients can behave according to their disgnoses. I should have written that I need to go the hospital for safety reasons but don't trust the psychiatrists who are there now. I went there last year to see a friend and the psychiatrists are very controlling men who will trigger my abusive past.

Thank you. I may write more tomorrow.

There are no support groups where I live. I see a private therapist 50 minutes away. Since I'm not always depressed, I don't think a support group would benefit me. When stress gets too high or when I'm severely triggered is when I have trouble. There was something that shifted in me emotionally and spiritually on Friday and I'm coping a bit better.