Why does life have to be so down???

why do i have to be depressed all the time,even if something cool happens to me,i steel feel down. why???? Grrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!! I fight w/ my dad all th time,and we dont get along..... School sucks,my parents expect the highest of me,but i cant get what the want,i used to have a 3.0,now i have,of the highest, a 2.0, so my parents are always on my back. i have experienced things that people shouldent even try till high school, and i like lots of them. i dont like my town,and im never happy. i used to be happy all the time,and really hyper too,also the only way i cant express my feelings is by drawing,or writing. I also have big trust issues. It takes alot for me to trust people. I just need someone to talk to,but my parents never take me seriously enough. Will someome PM me, i need to talk to someone. im having thoughts that i dont think i should have,but i have anyway,and they all seem very fun..lol... PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!!!!
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Hello darkchild. It does sound from your description as if you may be suffering from depression. It may help you to learn about depression, there are a lot of resources out there, you can start with the links on the homepage of this website. Maybe it will help make your parents take it more seriously as well. There is lots of help available.

>> im having thoughts that i dont think i should have,but i have anyway,and they all seem very fun

I'm not sure what type of thoughts you are having, but just in case you are thinking of hurting yourself in any way, I want you to realize that there are other solutions, better solutions, to help you feel better. If you feel really poorly please call a hotline number, you can get a list of numbers at
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I think you need to start by talking to your school counselor. I know it's hard to talk to strangers and open up, but just about everyone here has done it. We all have to at some point. And the earlier you start, the better. I sure wish I was as smart as you are to notice that I had problems at your age. I should have been in therapy at your age, but I didn't go until college. By then I was a real basket case! :-)

If it's too hard to talk about your problems, you can also write or draw them, and take your drawings, etc. to the school social worker. That might work well for you. You need to get those emotions out hon! Being on-line is great, but in person help is really important. Please consider doing this soon. OK?

Emmy

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