Slipping away into darkness

Hey my depression has become so bad that I am thinking of going inpatient. I guess I am really scared to go...because i am worried about who will take over my classes I teach? I have hours to make up for this program and I am afraid of falling behind. Does anyone have any advice? I feel hopeless and scared

If anything happens to you, none of that will matter. Make up hours and teaching responsibilities will be meaningless. There will only be many grieving people who would give anything to have helped you when you needed it.
I have been at this crossroads. But who will do my job? How can I take off time? As my sister said "if you had another serious, life threatening disease, there would be no question. You would be in the hospital. This isn't any different. You are sick. You need help to feel better. Go get help."
I have checked myself in to be hospitalized twice. The second time I didn't want to go. My therapist, my sister, and I discussed it on a group phone call. That is when my sister said the above. My therapist concurred.
No I didn't come out 100% cured of mental illness. However, I came out healthier with radically different meds which have made a huge difference in my quality of life. I still am employed, because I can go into work and do a better job, feeling better. After doing some art therapy inpatient, I started creating art again and found it is a great coping mechanism for me. Plus I get pretty stuff at the end.
I feel you think you may need to go that you are slipping away.
Fight.
Fight to keep going.
Fight for better health.
Fight even though you are exhausted.
You are not alone.there is support out there.
Hospitalization may greatly help in this battle. Please keep posting here, you are surrounded by support.

As Dylan Thomas said,
"Rage, rage against the dying of the light"

Please do yourself a favor. First, take care of you~ you are the priority. You see hon you can be no good to your class feeling as you do now. Talk to your supervisor and come clean with him or her. Your depression is an illness that no one can hold against you legally or professionally. Believe me when I say, we all have someone in our family who has some form of illness... your boss included. I don't quite understand about the hours to make up for the program. But as I said before, right now it is your needs that matter. YOU are the top priority. Everything else will work out one way or another and worrying about it only harms you more and nothing ever gets solved with worrying anyway. Do right by yourself. Talk to your boss and go inpatient.
Best of luck and many blessings. ~D~

Falling behind at work is not more important than YOU! My therapist once told me that I can't take care of others if I don't take care of myself first. It's always a battle to do so, but it is sooooo true.