Nothing helps - please help me

I've tried everything i could think of but nothing helps.

Docs, Ts, pdocs, meds, distractions, talking about my feelings in different forums and places, with friends, going out, working, reading, watching tv, listening to music, showering, eating junk food, helping out at home, cutting, drinking, taking more pills than i should. nothing works.

what do i have left out?

im going insane.

PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME

all there is in my mind is negative thoughts about myself (failure, never amount to anything, never get a job, never find a bouyfriend etc), violent visions of self harm and suicide and a constant screaming in my mind with no words, just an infinite aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh.

what do i do?

i see T tomorrow but i have lost faith in Ts, docs and meds. only solution i see is suicide.

Help someone else.

I relate to a lot of this except for "never having a boyfriend"
(Instead, substitute "parents didn't love me")

Some may even envy you in a sense for thinking of the parents house as "home" especially after the age of 16

Btw you still have plenty of time to find that "special" someone of the male sex who will love you if you stick around

I agree, helping others (or even one person) is very likely to help you too

I have tried that already, and it was nice but very overwhelming too and now i'm too exhausted and fragile to think of helping anyone else. Sorry if this is selfish, but i really cant.

Maybe a bit of "cave time"

Sinking

Is this something for you? https://www.mindquire.com

Thanks for the link but im too messed up at the moment to even think straight. as for the time alone i have it a lot more than i need. i need to cry but i cant control it

Im out of control. THE PILLS ARE RIGHT HERE

Call your emergency hotline, 911 and get help now.

Highlighted is dysfunctional behaviors,of course they will not work.


How about meditation, creative journaling, channeling it all into art, psychtrance music (depends on the type, but there are tracks that have beats that do something interesting to my mind), turning to nature, eating healthy, loving yourself, herbal supplements, finding your spirituality, existentialism, buddhism, crystals, bach essences, travelling, forgiving yourself, volunteering, fighting for a cause, going to where you can see the stars, looking for good omens, cuddling a cat and looking in her eyes....

These are just some of the things that work for me...

Get the emergency help you need now and then when your immediate episode is over... try different things. Outside of the healthcare system. Things that are not in the tacky "help yourself" paperbacks. Be resourceful.