[guiltier65]

I was feeling pretty good until today. I have struggled with anxiety,but if wasn't overwhelming. But today as I sat in therapy, I realized that I will never win this battle. The I insurance co won't authorize my meds and I'm too wiped out to fight them. I feel so empty. I am no longer on my meds, so now I fight alone. Is it worth it? It doesn't feel like it tonight. Obviously, the insurance co doesn't see much value in me,so what is the point. I thought I was OK,but I just want to curl up and cry. I am tired of the numbness and anxiety that controls my life. Sorry for the whining.

[dexter]

Hello guiltier... Don't take your cue from the insurance company, they see us as a bunch of premiums until they have to pay. I am so sorry you can't get your meds. Maybe someone here will have a practical suggestion. I just want to say that I see value in you and I can empathize with your pain and with your struggle and I know that doesn't help much but I hope it might make you feel less alone. I think it is OK sometimes to curl up and cry I wish I could give you a hug. Hope things get better... back to having some pretty good days.

[guiltier65]

I keep choking back the tears for fear that if i start crying I just won't stop! It does help to realize that there are people like you that care. But I'm tired of feeling so hopelessly screwed up and being a burden to my family and others. I'm not completely suicidal, but even if i was i wouldn't admit it. I've been in the hospital so many times and it doesn't change anything. i just feel so alone....

[flockpride]

Insurance companies are driven by profit. You and I and all "subscribers" are sources of their profit. They do not ascribe value to any person unless the person can bring them profit. But they're not valued as a person, only as a revenue stream.

You have inherent worth simply as being a living human being. You don't have to do anything to earn it or prove it. You deserve care and love and regard.

How can the insurance deny medication? That seems a pretty basic provision.
Do you know some one who can advocate for you, if you are too tired to do it? Sometimes I cannot advocate for myself and my therapist or spouse have stepped in.

I hope you can feel better soon and get the medication you need.

[dexter]

Originally Posted by flockpride

Do you know some one who can advocate for you, if you are too tired to do it? Sometimes I cannot advocate for myself and my therapist or spouse have stepped in.

That is a great idea. I was having trouble with my insurance company and with therapists' offices when I was trying to find a therapist for my current depression. I actually discovered that my insurance company has a health service who provides and advocate for "complex cases"... they assigned me a case worker and she ended up finding me a therapist and a psychiatrist.

I tend to feel that when an insurance company denies a claim or medication that that's it... But reading the experience of others I guess that is not the case. Maybe they push it to see who will fight back. Maybe it is your right to dispute the denial of medication... Something an advocate might be able to help you with by calling them on your behalf.

[emijec]

I'm so sorry. �� wish i could take that pain away , it's one of the worst feelings in the world. you deserve better

[Fuzzybear]

[gayleggg]

I really sucks when the insurance companies won't cover our meds. It makes an already tough time worse. Will it cover other drugs that might help? Mine will cover my meds but the cost is $100 for each. I can't really afford them but have no choice, is I want to stay sane and alive.

I hope you find a solution.

[guiltier65]

I have talked to the insurance company once and all they did was reiterate their decision. My psychiatrist tells me that he doesn't have time to call and vouch for my needs, so I'm on my own. i just don't have the energy to fight them. I have also decided that this battle is never going to end until I surrender. I feel like i'm losing ground each day.