Relationships and Depression/Suicidal Ideation

In my previous post I talked about my chronic suicidal thoughts. I am wondering how you deal with this in your relationships? I have thoughts pretty much every day, sometimes its less frequent though. I know that it affects relationships. When I have these thoughts so frequently I don't know what to do. I keep them to myself most of the time, but sometimes I will talk about them because I guess at certain points I am unable to hold back or think about the other person and how they will be affected by it. I have a therapist who I brought this up with before, but I think I need to talk about this more indepth at my next appointment.

Hi adashofhope: Nary a day goes by the Skeezyks doesn't consider the possibility. And he's made a few attempts in the past... I just keep it all to myself. My spouse doesn't want to hear about & doesn't know what to do with it. And besides... there's nothing anyone can do about it. It just is what it is.

Suicidal thinking must not be taken lightly. It's great you've brought this up with your therapist. Definitely talk more in-depth about it at your next appointment!

I have suicidal thoughts every day, but I keep them to myself. I certainly can't confide in my wife. Her father committed suicide and she becomes enraged if I even hint about wanting to kill myself. It is hard, though, walking around wanting to die and trying not to show it.

Yeah, I am definitely planning to talk about it more at my next appointment.

I feel really bad now about that times I have brought it up. I know I shouldn't do that at all anymore.

Yeah it really is. I want my husband to be happy and I know telling him those types of things definitely have the opposite effect as I have learned. When the feelings and thoughts seem to overtake me though, its like its hard to control. I feel really bad about it. Also, I think I am just desensitized the whole thing because I've dealt with it so long and I don't know how it feels for other people to hear that when its not something they have struggled with (at least not in the same way - I know its normal to think about suicide for most people on occasion, but not constantly).