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May 17, 2016, 05:07 PM
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I keep have thoughts about doing something even though I could never go through with it. I just can't take it anymore. I've been seeing my T weekly since the beginning of the year and I feel like I'm making no progress at all and even further away from reaching my goals. I've been taking antidepressants since December last year and I don't believe they're helping. Also, they are causing excessive sweating and consequently I am trying to taper off them right now.
The other thing is I've had to start seeing my T fortnightly due to financial reasons. Right now is the first two week gap between sessions and I'm not coping well at all. I have become so attached to my T and I feel like I can't function without her. I'm literally obsessed with her. I don't know if it is a combination of this and tapering off my mess but I just wish I could go to sleep and never wake up. |
 Anonymous37780, Anonymous37887, Anonymous48850, speckofdust, the sad queen
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May 17, 2016, 06:37 PM
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retro-
I know it doesn't suddenly make you feel better, but you're definitely not alone in your feelings. When I read your post, I was surprised because I could have written much of it myself! I'm trying to figure out why I do keep waking up every morning. My last thought at night is often "I wish I could just go to sleep and that would be that." For now, I'm off all meds and trying to find a way to accept the way things are and keep making it through each day. I'm in the early stages of that process, but I'm hoping my therapist will help me get there. Thanks for your post - at least I know I'm not alone in my thoughts and feelings. |
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May 17, 2016, 06:39 PM
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light over darkness  "Do not give in too much to feelings. An overly sensitive heart is an unhappy possession on this shaky earth" Johann Wolfgang von Goethe have faith and god will make everything better 
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May 17, 2016, 07:10 PM
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Retro Chic, i feel for you. It is hard to be in a place of transition. (((hugs))) I hope that you realize we all have to put our feelings in their right place and move forward. It is hard to find a good balance, there is always fluctuations. Hang in there, things will get better,,,blessings and tc
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May 17, 2016, 07:18 PM
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May 17, 2016, 07:46 PM
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I also would like to go to sleep and never wake up. But I keep waking up. There are days when I would just like to be done with this life. I have always relied on antidepressants to get me through the dark times, but this time they seem to be doing me no good. I am afraid that what little life I have left will always be like this. Thankfully, I am older and I don't have all that many years left. Sorry to be such a downer, but sometimes it's hard to keep it all inside.
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May 17, 2016, 09:37 PM
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Thank you everyone for your replies. I'm currently trying to struggle my way through the workday. I can't believe it is only Wednesday
 .I don't see a Pdoc for my medication at the moment, just my GP but my GP has given me a referral to see one. I'm going to call them today but I think there is a long waiting list to see this particular Pdoc so we'll see.., |
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May 17, 2016, 10:08 PM
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I have been where you are now, so I feel for you!
Perhaps this therapist is not the right fit for you? I have seen over 12 different therapist since my early teens and been on various medication and I have yet to find the right combo for extended periods of time, it is like we get somewhere and then it is stagnate for months and months. It is a magical elusive unicorn I am hoping to find!. Speak to your GP about how the medication makes you feel. I often found meds made me feel really rough during the getting on/weaning off stages. I have been Med free for a few years now - this has suited me but I do not advocate or recommend this for others of course without seeking medical advice first Take care of yourself! |
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May 17, 2016, 10:57 PM
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In regards to the medication, I called the Pdoc I was referred to and the receptionis told me the earliest I could get an appointment is around the end of July/ beginning of August and I would like to see someone earlier than that. I called my GP's office and I can't get a Saturday appointment for another two weeks. I work full time and do not want to be taking time off co stanly to see doctors. It's all too hard. |
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May 18, 2016, 12:00 AM
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It must be very over whelming for you right now! especially working full time on top of how you are feeling must be frustrating as hell.
It's great you have a good therapist, I can understand your distress in switching down to fortnightly appointments especially since you are working through so much atm. Do you have any sort of exercises in place within a care plan for when you are feeling like this? I know I learnt a lot of breathing and meditation stuff during previous therapies that just helped keep me alive and focused 10 minutes at a time when I was having it rough |
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May 18, 2016, 04:19 AM
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May 18, 2016, 06:50 AM
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Having a therapist/psychologist is great but sometimes when you need to talk to someone right now, it may be worthwhile talking to someone else in the meantime. Is there any Crisis Line you can call where you are? They are usually free.
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