Daily Check In, ups and downs #18

No, I don't know. I've never asked.

Do you have any way to find out? I am asking this because in the future you may want to give a try to another T and it would be good to know what kind of therapy is implementing this one

I could ask at my next session. After yesterday I'm wondering if I should try someone else, that session was disturbingly similar to the ones I was having with my last T.

Yeah, it could be the type of strategies they use

Today is okay. Somewhat productive, for me. Did something I've been wanting to get done for a long time.

Same old, same old. I had been feeling somewhat good during the summer time, but now for no reason anxiety has been striking me. Me sleep has been OK, so I don't understand very well why I feel like this.
Now it's just me and my father at home during the day, it is more quiet, so it should be a more calm environment for me. But now I am feeling very self conscious when I speak with my father again. I think it's because I feel nervous for no logical reason.
Sometimes I have a good time with my father and have some fun joking around with him... Others times I feel bad about myself thinking I have to meet some unknown standards when next to him. I felt like these for many years, I decided I won't more (of course it is not that simple)... I thought I had make some progress not carrying. And then I feel anxious. Maybe it's because the house is so quiet now and everyday we do the same routines.
Of course my exam date is getting dangerously close, but I don't think that's a major factor for how I feel. But it does make me stressed too.

hey mulan,

good luck with the exam (what is it on?)

i'm sorry you are struggling. keep reaching out to the forum.. we're here to listen and offer support.

i'm not entirely sure how i've done it, but not slept for almost another whole week

not feeling to bad though for the moment (probably because i'm on here), i start to feel bad when i'm not on here

This morning got off to a bad start. Lately I have been mulling over my financial woes. I get a little bit ahead and then unexpected expenses come my way. The bad start was when I got pulled over by the Police right near where I work. I didn't stop long enough at an intersection. So they wrote me a ticket for it. So another expense coming, this time it's like money thrown out the window!

Later on in the morning I got talking to the nurse from the Urologist that I am supposed to see about medication. Instead of being able to answer my questions over the phone, I'll have to come in just to talk. And then come in another time for the medication. So that means two visits instead of one, in which I'll have to pay two co-pays.

Other than those two items, nothing else has gone wrong - thank goodness! We'll see how the rest of the day will progress.

Hi! Thank you!

"Just" an exam about every piece of information that there is to know on 5 major medical specialities written in this big book... "Harrison's principles of internal medicine" (in case you wanted me to be more specific ). I have to do this exam if I want to practice medicine in my country (fresh out of school).

Bad night of sleep last night. Had a nightmare in which my grandmother was dying. After waking up couldn't shake the bad feeling. Toke me some time to got back to sleep again.

Went to my small local "gym" today. Every women that used to train there seems to had quit. Lately there are even few people there. This is the best place for me right now, but it was better when I had more company.
I don't know what kind of relationship I should have with the trainer. I tend to be somewhat distant and unpersonal... But he is almost my age, he lives nearby and has very "country side" personality. I don't want to seem like I feel to good for my village... That's not the case. In fact I feel very humble next to my colleagues. I think if I was more outgoing nothing of this would be an issue.

I'm not coping well today.

Still depressed and tired. I hope it passes soon. It was a little better after I talked to my daughter yesterday but didn't last long.

I shouldn't write. It's a waste of space and time and it shows emotion.

But oh my god I'm in so much pain right now. I tried walking around to dispense the energy, and that helped a little - I think I needed to run.

It's little things. Little things that work into a very vulnerable spot and inflame and just hurt so much.

Gah, I want to scream so bad tonight. Was having a really pleasant, though odd, afternoon with my mom, and I decided to check my work email. Checked one email that started with "with (coworker) resigning from (work)". So much stress that I do not need right now. I wish I had something to break, I want to destroy.

Not feeling very well tonight emotionally.

Sorry to hear that some of you are not feeling well tonight. I'm not either. Really depressed and tired but also keyed up, not sure why.

not feeling too bad despite no sleep.

just sat here posting and listening to EA

Scared, sad. Must wait 4 more days for next steps in cancer screening. Stress doesn't help, I know. It may be fine. Or I will accept my last journey somehow.

Oh wow. Goodluck - hope fate / god / krishna / allah/ budda / whoever is on your side x

New thread is here http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...ml#post5296553