[MtnTime2896]

How would you describe your self-esteem and how does it correlate with your depression?

[Hopeofreedom]

This is hard question?!lol😉 hmmm, my self esteem was actually pretty good when I was younger, but when puberty came and hormones along with my depression, my esteem took a hit! Then my lowering esteem fed my depression and that lowered it some more. And it became a never ending cycle that lead me to a very dark place....

But I'm getting better now and I'm learning more about how to take care of myself, along with noticing the symptoms and reasons for why I am currently feeling this way. Knowledge is power! 😊. Oops got off topic a little.

[Luce]

My self esteem is very very low at the moment.
My depression is severe.

[Deeplyhurt77]

I've found that my low self esteem is exactly correlated to my depression. Just a whirlwind of the two going round and round. The one causes the other and so on.

[Unrigged64072835]

My self-esteem is actually okay, but it took a lot of work to get it there. It does take a hit when I'm depressed, mainly because of all the negative self-talk.

[bronzeowl]

Fluctuating. There are some areas where I have pretty high self esteem - particularly when it comes to the things I'm good at (like writing, training dogs, and cooking) - and yet other areas where my self esteem tends to be pretty low (like socializing). Because of this, sometimes I feel very proud of myself, and great. Other times I feel I'm inferior and I feel low. Both affect my depression. My self esteem is a lot higher than it was a few years ago, though. And I definitely feel my depression was becoming easier to manage as a result (although it's been difficult the past few weeks due to adjusting to having a baby).

[SvanThor]

My self-esteem is a lot better than it used to be before I had an androgynous sort of style. I wear makeup as a sort of "disguise". It really helps with the self-consciousness.

[RandolphCarter1919]

I mimic DeeplyHurt77 in that my self esteem coincides with my depression. When I am having a particularly bad bout, my self worth is pretty low. I'll go through extreme guilt, pity, etc.

Though, when I am so so or having a good day, my sense of self/image is pretty good to even strong. But it can be, much like Deeply said, a whirlwind of emotion and such.

The oddest thing, when I am depressed, and my self worth is low, I am usually nicer, more selfless...and when I am feeling good and my confidence is high, I can be a jerk...I wish I had a way to "fix" that...

[EriElla]

My self esteem has always been a little on the low side. I've been focusing on building it back up for the last few years. But most definitely, the worse my depression is, the worse my self esteem becomes. When I am not feeling too depressed, the gains in esteem aren't as good as the losses when I'm down. I sometimes have to "fake it until I make it" and that helps a little bit.

I guess I feel so low because I can't figure out how to stop my depression cycle and so it makes me feel frustrated and useless.

[hopeless2015]

Mine definitely fluctuates depending get on my depression, it can be a vicious cycle

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[guiltier65]

my self esteem is very low right now and my depression is out of control. I feel so hopeless, alone, and worthless. I can't bear to be around people right now for fear they'll realize what a fake I am.

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by guiltier65

my self esteem is very low right now and my depression is out of control. I feel so hopeless, alone, and worthless. I can't bear to be around people right now for fear they'll realize what a fake I am.

I remember talking to you on another post you've recently made but is there something else that has brought on this bout of depression and low self worth (feeling hopeless, alone and worthless)? What makes you see yourself as a fake?

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by Deeplyhurt77

I've found that my low self esteem is exactly correlated to my depression. Just a whirlwind of the two going round and round. The one causes the other and so on.

Do you know which triggers which? The depression ---> low self esteem or the other way around?

[guiltier65]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

I remember talking to you on another post you've recently made but is there something else that has brought on this bout of depression and low self worth (feeling hopeless, alone and worthless)? What makes you see yourself as a fake?

Thanks for talking with me. Right now, I'm feeling so out of control. I'm barely managing to keep it together at work and I'm so afraid that everyone will realize that I really am a hopeless mess on the inside.
I feel that I've let my family down in so many ways.

Lately I don't know where my low self-esteem begins and my depression ends.

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by guiltier65

Thanks for talking with me. Right now, I'm feeling so out of control. I'm barely managing to keep it together at work and I'm so afraid that everyone will realize that I really am a hopeless mess on the inside.
I feel that I've let my family down in so many ways.

You shouldn't blame yourself for being human. Honestly, most people are messed up, in some way shape or form, no one person can handle everything on their shoulders alone. It's okay to feel out of control sometimes, we all do. If you can, try and take some time out every day and let yourself do something that you enjoy, then write out things that you can accomplish the next 24 hours; then do it the next day and so on.
Look, I've been the kid of parents who were letting me down but it wasn't in ways that were financial (at least, that's not what got to me). It was full blown putting me down constantly, being emotionally abusive (physical stopped when I was in the beginning of adolescents) and watching my mom leave for a long time and not knowing if I was ever going to see her again. I don't know your life story and I'm not going to pretend to, but kids are also pretty resilient. I don't know about other family members but I know that as I've gotten older, I'm realizing that there were some areas when my parents were genuinely doing the best they could. Considering they both suffer from severe and untreated mental illnesses; let's just say that it could have been a lot worse.
If you're doing your best, you're not letting your family down. I know you're overwhelmed right now but don't confuse that by thinking you're a failure. You're not. I know because you're still trying and still fighting every single day. You're stronger than you know.

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by ennui.

Lately I don't know where my low self-esteem begins and my depression ends.

I suppose in the mix, it can feel like that. Have you tried any self help techniques to raise your self esteem?

[qwerty68]

Before I had depression: self-hatred
After: seething self-hatred

I have always felt I was lower than everyone else for as long as I can remember. It used to not get in the way of my goals and desires though, now it most certainly does.

[snarkydaddy]

I would say my self esteem is rather solid and not an issue.

Where I run into a problem is that I do not connect personally with my talents. In other words I do not monetize or see the abilities that I was born with as me. I know what I am exceptional at as well my weaknesses. But I disconnect "my talents" from who I am. And these talents are not part of my identity. I hope this makes sense.

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