[MtnTime2896]

Now, they're seriously diagnosing me as bipolar?! Seriously? I've been your damn patient for two ****ing weeks and I'm all the sudden bipolar?!

(Just know that I mean no offense to anyone with bipolar disorder, I'm just pissed at my mental health care right now.)

How, in such a short time do these doctors know exactly what's wrong with me? How does that work? Back at the hospital, inside a week I was diagnosed with PTSD, depression, anxiety, panic disorder (and basically a ****ing list of different kinds of anxiety), chronic dissociation, intermittent explosive disorder, adult adhd, suicidal ideation and self-injury impulse. Now, after meeting me twice and never knowing me before, literally talking to me for a grand total of two and a half hours; I must be bipolar! I don't care how good of a doctor you think you are, no way you can figure that out after only doing two sessions with me. Wouldn't the ****ing hospital have caught it, seeing as how they were on a diagnoses & medication filling rampage?
To add insult to injury, I made it perfectly clear that I didn't want to be put on medication ever again after what I went through. Guess who's already drug pushing: My brand new know-it-in-two-sessions doctor!
I finally let myself get past my "paranoia" and see a professional and I feel like I'm already repeating what happened to me before. Why can't I just get a doctor who doesn't over diagnose and over medicate? Where the hell are those doctors?
I'm pissed but I'm sorry for the rant. I wish there was strictly a venting forum.

Sorry for posting so much lately, guys. I'm just not doing so good right now.

[little turtle]

you have a venting forum right here...I am angry also about these very things...they screwed me up also...and I am one of them...it is very hard to find a good doctor now...they are into the business model....

[mindwrench]

I get your frustration. My T nailed me with BP1 & Psychosis within the first hour of meeting me. He wasn't the first one (actually the 4th), but he didn't know that and did not have access to my previous T's records. He also said I should be on meds and told me to go see the pdoc. The second meeting we had he started off by saying why didn't you go see the pdoc, and spent 10 minutes pushing meds. Like you I have a LOT of distrust in mental health providers, and they didn't help that by being so fast to call a dx and push drugs.

[dexter]

Advocate for yourself. I agree it seems like they are just throwing things out there. Ask why he thinks you are bipolar and if it seems off base tell him so. Let his reasons sink in a bit so that you can see if they really fit you. If they don't, challenge him. You need the proper diagnosis to get proper treatment. It's not like throwing spaghetti at the refrigerator to see if it sticks.

And yea, vent here. Vent there a bit too if it isn't going to get you into trouble.

[qwerty68]

I hate when they do that. I had a pdoc a long time ago diagnose me with about a half a dozen personality disorders, some were contradictory, in the first 15 minutes of the first appointment. I never went back to him.

In my experience it takes quite a few appointments to get a valid diagnosis. Now, my current pdoc will saddle me with provisional things but wait and see if that is the case. The last thing he did that with was anhedonia, but he pretty quickly dismissed it but I could see why he initially thought that. Did you actually get the diagnosis or did they just bring it up?

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by qwerty68

I hate when they do that. I had a pdoc a long time ago diagnose me with about a half a dozen personality disorders, some were contradictory, in the first 15 minutes of the first appointment. I never went back to him.

In my experience it takes quite a few appointments to get a valid diagnosis. Now, my current pdoc will saddle me with provisional things but wait and see if that is the case. The last thing he did that with was anhedonia, but he pretty quickly dismissed it but I could see why he initially thought that. Did you actually get the diagnosis or did they just bring it up?

I wanted to leave not more than a few minutes after he brought up the diagnoses and medication. I told him that I was willing to listen to his reasoning next time but had to leave at that moment. I see him again next Monday. I'll admit that he seemed concerned when I left. I think he knew I'd react bad following the session. I'm not saying the guy's heartless but I do feel like he's jumping the gun on a diagnoses that'd stay with me forever, and he seemed to forget my opinion on medication and pushed anyway. The diagnoses would come next session and so will the prescription I won't pick up. Every time I'm getting mental health treatment, I receive so many diagnoses and prescription drugs that it makes my head spin. I'm beginning to feel genuinely insane.
I'll admit that I see and hear things that no one else does, but psychosis (if that's what it is) can very easily be a result of the PTSD. It doesn't mean anything else until proven so. I honestly don't think it is psychosis and that it's just sensory flashbacks or something. I told him this and he agreed but then he started with the bipolar disorder ****.
I just hope I can convince him that I don't believe I have it and that he needs further investigation and time to actually make that diagnoses. I want to be a cop, once I get myself stable. No way they'll let me on the force if I have a diagnoses of bipolar disorder attached to my file. I'll be lucky if they allow me with what I have going on now. That's why I went back to therapy, so that it'd be documented that I've been treated for it and am stable. I just can't have that diagnoses. I can't.

[Humpty Dumpty]

You don't have to apologize for posting "so much". Never apologize for that. Sounds like you need to dump this drug pedaling doctor. I'm sorry you're having such a bad experience with Drs.

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by Humpty Dumpty

You don't have to apologize for posting "so much". Never apologize for that. Sounds like you need to dump this drug pedaling doctor. I'm sorry you're having such a bad experience with Drs.

Thanks. I'm giving him one more session but I think you might be right. I just don't know where to turn to if this fails. I've tried so much and nothing's worked. Maybe I just can't be helped. Maybe I'm broken until I check out. I should've learned a long time ago from something that happened. I should've kept it in my mind. I can't be saved.

[Humpty Dumpty]

I know the feeling of being broken beyond repair. I wish you the best.

[little turtle]

so leigheas----you may be interested in the MAD IN AMERICA website...it helps in understanding what is going on with psychiatry in America..

[Fuzzybear]

I too know the feeling of being "broken" (beyond repair )
Thinking of you